hello again
Hello sorry about the lack of posts. I should post even when I'm angry cause if I don't I let things carry on. Well today wasn't that productive. I woke up around 11 having the urge to have the cat sleep with me. After luring the cat in to sleep with me Nick got all upset at me cooing at it so he left. I went back to sleep with the cat and still woke up alone. Ben paid me back. Matt C came over after Taco Bell. He finally got out thank god.
Anyways Nick went to school and I stayed home working on my emails. I got a bunch of work in NJ coming up. Nick is being really wierd again. Since my friend bought me a hookah yesterday he asked me if I had sex with him. What a dick, when he's the one always telling me to see this guy. He needs to make up his mind.
Not to mention he flipped out by yelling stop and pushing my head away when I was trying to flirt with him about 6d9'ing. He apologized afterwards, which was very nessacery. He said he didn't like eating me out. No one else in my life ever had that problem. I do not have any disease or enlarged clitoris. I have a normal pussy no yeast infection nothing. I've been told I tasted like berries. How can that be bad? Don't know why all of a sudden he does this shit. If I didn't know him any better I would think he was having a mid life crisis. Well I'm sick of his no foot massages, no oral, and no fun or going out ever.
My friend scott really really likes me. He told me he wants me to move to CA with him. But yesterday he expressed much interest in this. Like talking about how he would be my boyfriend if I didn't have the no relationship rule. And he tried to buy me clothes online. Smoked a shit load of weed with me. Bought a new bong for his house when I told him to.But it was silly he was tRYING TO CUT DEALS WITH ME AND SHIT. sorry about caps. He told me he'd get my name tattoo'ed anywhere on him including his shlong!!! That's impressive. I've always wanted someone to tattoo something on their body for me. THat's like a hidden dream/lust of mine. Well he said he's get the property of lisa or something lol!!! I love the way he is a looks at life. Him and I get along great but I don't know anymore about having people in my life....it seems pointless and hurtful a majority of the time. It always seems when things are looking up it some how falls apart.
But to add on to how upset I wasx with nick's non affection...
THis photographer that I'm about to work with later this year, has a picture of me printed on his desk. It was sooo cute! He downloaded one of my headshots with snow on my hair, printed it up and framed it in his work room. I tried to hang and frame one of my modeling pictures and nick got all upset and said stricitly NO.
Nick and I hardly talk these past couple days (actually since I stopped typing in here). I'm pretty sure he knows I'm sick of him acting like this.
I figured out Nick and why he acts the way he does. He was really bad when he was young, and he smokes weed and doesn't have any family problems. Why would he rebel against such nice people? WEll he's just like my cat attention lover/clingy.
I bet when he was younger he did all these smart things but they were over looked cause John had new problems and Ben was unexpectedly born. It was probably hard for nick to get attention from his family. So he began to smoke weed get introuble smoke cigs. Well that's why he treats me the way he does, because he wants all my attention. He gets it all right!! It's so annoying. I kinda told him I figured this out, and you know what, he really didn't disagree or say much anything.
He gets upset when I try to become friend with bi women and/or have sex with other women(he doesn't care at first until I tell him how much fun I had). THat is so stupid for him to care. It's not like my pussy is getting loose! Plus these women do the thing i love the most oral, which he doesn't do anymore. Not to mention I could have a possible friend that's a chick here!! Well my sister is coming to NY I have no clue what is going to happen. I'm hoping I can kidnapp Matt C for the ride to meet my parents half way. Why I would like matt c (Live journal! matttheripper)to go with me
!. He's my mother fucking friend dildoS!
2. Great company
3.makes me feel safe
4.doesn't poke smot
5.and would punch my dad on command if needed :-) it's true you told me yourself!
Well I hope she really is aloud to go. Should I be mad at nick? He shows affection by cooking for me a lot, and trying to have sex more often with me. But most the time lately he seems to be getting more possesive and bitchy.
Shit I don't know what to do but to enjoy other thing and people in my life.
On a better note there is this bi chick who wants to meet me and possible get it on. She described herself as 4'11 100pds 24yrs old 38C boobies. Her name is Tiff. I picture this chick as a caucasin blonde. Well she lives by me and wants me to hit her up sometime. I think I will take her up on this offer. She lives on LI pretty close to me... I'll call her tomorrow.
heheheh my first carpet munching buddy lol!
BTW I will have to post this new press release about my foot fetish video that just came out!!! It's this sweet! Peace out
Adventure's in Footland:
RedLight TV’s "Alice in Footland" steps beyond your usual erotic
entertainment.
NEW YORK, NY – As far as fetishes go the foot has never had a
shortage of
fans. However, over the past year, there has been a major spike in the
interest
in foot fetishism, as exemplified by the growing number of fetish clubs
dedicating nights to foot worship and "palaces" actually devoted solely
to foot
devotion. Like anything in New York, sexy subcultures quickly become
trendy and
then just as rapidly go out of style, and it would seem that foot
fetishism is
this year’s sexual flavor.
Manhattan-based erotic television channel RedLight TV’s has been
following
this trend and has embarked on it's most elaborate production to date
"Alice in
Footland," This is a foot fetishist’s dream romp through the
fantastical
Footland, where even though other female attributes are explored, feet
are valued
above all else. In his erotic interpretation of Alice in Wonderland,
director
Napoleon Lake tells the story of a young girl's stolen pair of
priceless shoes
and her journey to retrieve them in Footland. Along the way she gets an
education in real foot worship. The subject allowed Lake to pull out
all the stops.
"I really let loose creatively in 'Alice' and like any great story it's
the
about a person being transformed. In this case into understanding the
sensuousness of feet." says Lake as he reviews a rough edit of the
piece, which is the
first installment in a series. The program, which can be seen
exclusively by
subscribers to RedLightTV.com, was shot on location in New York’s
very own
Footland, the Foot Worship Palace.
One of the Palace’s goddesses is Sativa Verte, who also happens to be
the
star and title character of "Alice in Footland." Sativa, who began
modeling at
the Foot Worship Palace less than a year ago, found foot modeling to be
a
perfect release for her. "I was looking for a way to let my erotic side
come out,"
says the 20 year old actress and model as she absentmindedly kicks off
a shoe
and flexes her toes. In addition to Sativa, Lake was able to recruit
several
other Palace regulars, including several foot worshippers. Though many
cast
members had never performed in front of a camera, Sativa observed,
"There's
nothing like watching someone do something the love or maybe I should
say obsess
over---they put their heart, tongues and souls into the scenes"
Foot fetishists know exactly what they want, be it bare feet,
stockinged
feet, sweaty feet in gym socks or feet in luxurious Manolo or Choo's.
Charlie, is
one of the foot worshippers in the film. He also offers foot-pampering
services professionally, attends foot parties and watches foot fetish
videos. He
comments that, "This film captures the special ambience that people who
share my
enthusiasm for foot have. Plus it respects the participants on screen,
consequently the foot worship scenes get really hot."
The visual richness, costumes and dynamics of the cast set "Alice in
Footland" apart from other erotic films and foot fetish videos. It
takes sexual foot
play and cinematically places it onto never before seen pedestal.
RedLightTV.com is a New York City based broadband and Video-On-Demand
television channel dedicated to bringing our audience a full frontal
view of the
world of sexuality. Our goal is to open Pandora’s Box, to reveal the
erotic, the
mysterious, and the hedonistic that all sexual beings crave.
Anyways Nick went to school and I stayed home working on my emails. I got a bunch of work in NJ coming up. Nick is being really wierd again. Since my friend bought me a hookah yesterday he asked me if I had sex with him. What a dick, when he's the one always telling me to see this guy. He needs to make up his mind.
Not to mention he flipped out by yelling stop and pushing my head away when I was trying to flirt with him about 6d9'ing. He apologized afterwards, which was very nessacery. He said he didn't like eating me out. No one else in my life ever had that problem. I do not have any disease or enlarged clitoris. I have a normal pussy no yeast infection nothing. I've been told I tasted like berries. How can that be bad? Don't know why all of a sudden he does this shit. If I didn't know him any better I would think he was having a mid life crisis. Well I'm sick of his no foot massages, no oral, and no fun or going out ever.
My friend scott really really likes me. He told me he wants me to move to CA with him. But yesterday he expressed much interest in this. Like talking about how he would be my boyfriend if I didn't have the no relationship rule. And he tried to buy me clothes online. Smoked a shit load of weed with me. Bought a new bong for his house when I told him to.But it was silly he was tRYING TO CUT DEALS WITH ME AND SHIT. sorry about caps. He told me he'd get my name tattoo'ed anywhere on him including his shlong!!! That's impressive. I've always wanted someone to tattoo something on their body for me. THat's like a hidden dream/lust of mine. Well he said he's get the property of lisa or something lol!!! I love the way he is a looks at life. Him and I get along great but I don't know anymore about having people in my life....it seems pointless and hurtful a majority of the time. It always seems when things are looking up it some how falls apart.
But to add on to how upset I wasx with nick's non affection...
THis photographer that I'm about to work with later this year, has a picture of me printed on his desk. It was sooo cute! He downloaded one of my headshots with snow on my hair, printed it up and framed it in his work room. I tried to hang and frame one of my modeling pictures and nick got all upset and said stricitly NO.
Nick and I hardly talk these past couple days (actually since I stopped typing in here). I'm pretty sure he knows I'm sick of him acting like this.
I figured out Nick and why he acts the way he does. He was really bad when he was young, and he smokes weed and doesn't have any family problems. Why would he rebel against such nice people? WEll he's just like my cat attention lover/clingy.
I bet when he was younger he did all these smart things but they were over looked cause John had new problems and Ben was unexpectedly born. It was probably hard for nick to get attention from his family. So he began to smoke weed get introuble smoke cigs. Well that's why he treats me the way he does, because he wants all my attention. He gets it all right!! It's so annoying. I kinda told him I figured this out, and you know what, he really didn't disagree or say much anything.
He gets upset when I try to become friend with bi women and/or have sex with other women(he doesn't care at first until I tell him how much fun I had). THat is so stupid for him to care. It's not like my pussy is getting loose! Plus these women do the thing i love the most oral, which he doesn't do anymore. Not to mention I could have a possible friend that's a chick here!! Well my sister is coming to NY I have no clue what is going to happen. I'm hoping I can kidnapp Matt C for the ride to meet my parents half way. Why I would like matt c (Live journal! matttheripper)to go with me
!. He's my mother fucking friend dildoS!
2. Great company
3.makes me feel safe
4.doesn't poke smot
5.and would punch my dad on command if needed :-) it's true you told me yourself!
Well I hope she really is aloud to go. Should I be mad at nick? He shows affection by cooking for me a lot, and trying to have sex more often with me. But most the time lately he seems to be getting more possesive and bitchy.
Shit I don't know what to do but to enjoy other thing and people in my life.
On a better note there is this bi chick who wants to meet me and possible get it on. She described herself as 4'11 100pds 24yrs old 38C boobies. Her name is Tiff. I picture this chick as a caucasin blonde. Well she lives by me and wants me to hit her up sometime. I think I will take her up on this offer. She lives on LI pretty close to me... I'll call her tomorrow.
heheheh my first carpet munching buddy lol!
BTW I will have to post this new press release about my foot fetish video that just came out!!! It's this sweet! Peace out
Adventure's in Footland:
RedLight TV’s "Alice in Footland" steps beyond your usual erotic
entertainment.
NEW YORK, NY – As far as fetishes go the foot has never had a
shortage of
fans. However, over the past year, there has been a major spike in the
interest
in foot fetishism, as exemplified by the growing number of fetish clubs
dedicating nights to foot worship and "palaces" actually devoted solely
to foot
devotion. Like anything in New York, sexy subcultures quickly become
trendy and
then just as rapidly go out of style, and it would seem that foot
fetishism is
this year’s sexual flavor.
Manhattan-based erotic television channel RedLight TV’s has been
following
this trend and has embarked on it's most elaborate production to date
"Alice in
Footland," This is a foot fetishist’s dream romp through the
fantastical
Footland, where even though other female attributes are explored, feet
are valued
above all else. In his erotic interpretation of Alice in Wonderland,
director
Napoleon Lake tells the story of a young girl's stolen pair of
priceless shoes
and her journey to retrieve them in Footland. Along the way she gets an
education in real foot worship. The subject allowed Lake to pull out
all the stops.
"I really let loose creatively in 'Alice' and like any great story it's
the
about a person being transformed. In this case into understanding the
sensuousness of feet." says Lake as he reviews a rough edit of the
piece, which is the
first installment in a series. The program, which can be seen
exclusively by
subscribers to RedLightTV.com, was shot on location in New York’s
very own
Footland, the Foot Worship Palace.
One of the Palace’s goddesses is Sativa Verte, who also happens to be
the
star and title character of "Alice in Footland." Sativa, who began
modeling at
the Foot Worship Palace less than a year ago, found foot modeling to be
a
perfect release for her. "I was looking for a way to let my erotic side
come out,"
says the 20 year old actress and model as she absentmindedly kicks off
a shoe
and flexes her toes. In addition to Sativa, Lake was able to recruit
several
other Palace regulars, including several foot worshippers. Though many
cast
members had never performed in front of a camera, Sativa observed,
"There's
nothing like watching someone do something the love or maybe I should
say obsess
over---they put their heart, tongues and souls into the scenes"
Foot fetishists know exactly what they want, be it bare feet,
stockinged
feet, sweaty feet in gym socks or feet in luxurious Manolo or Choo's.
Charlie, is
one of the foot worshippers in the film. He also offers foot-pampering
services professionally, attends foot parties and watches foot fetish
videos. He
comments that, "This film captures the special ambience that people who
share my
enthusiasm for foot have. Plus it respects the participants on screen,
consequently the foot worship scenes get really hot."
The visual richness, costumes and dynamics of the cast set "Alice in
Footland" apart from other erotic films and foot fetish videos. It
takes sexual foot
play and cinematically places it onto never before seen pedestal.
RedLightTV.com is a New York City based broadband and Video-On-Demand
television channel dedicated to bringing our audience a full frontal
view of the
world of sexuality. Our goal is to open Pandora’s Box, to reveal the
erotic, the
mysterious, and the hedonistic that all sexual beings crave.