More Bullshit
I hate my brother-in-law more than I think I've ever hated my mother. She may get pissed and treat me like crap sometimes, but at least she has the whole being psycho thing as an excuse. Paul has no reason to be treating me the way he does. On top of all the things I posted about last time, he walked in today after golfing with Allison and Trey, didn't say a word to me, AS I'M UNLOADING THE DISHWASHER. I had the T.V. on, watching some of the later episodes of Scrubs that I've never seen before, and I was watching it from the kitchen. Paul walks in and just changes the channel, without even asking me. Without even LOOKING at me. My cell phone was right next to where he was sitting, which was right next to the fucking remote. It's like he couldn't be a bigger ass. It's like he's TRYING to piss me off. I have done NOTHING to him in the past 2 weeks but be nice to him. No more. I'm done kissing his ass. I'd say I hope his balls shrivel up and fall off, but he doesn't have any to begin with, and even if he did, it's not like they're any use to him because he doesn't fucking use them. The least he could do is confront me about whatever he finds wrong with me. I probably won't change it anyway, but he could at least talk to me about it. Is that so much to ask??? I just don't understand what kind of person can have so little courtesy for another human being.. one that he used to be so close with. I'm considering going into debt with my parents just so I don't have to live here anymore. Right now I only owe my parents about $450 for my classes to get certified for my job. Both Connie and Nicole are thousands of dollars in debt to them right now. It just sucks that I could have been the only one to not have to use their money to get on my feet, but now I'm going to have to break down, and it's not even my own choice. On the other hand, that's what Paul wants, so part of me wants to stick around just to piss him the fuck off. But is that worth the stress and pain it's putting me through? Probably not, but there's a large part of me that just wants revenge. I'll probably never get it until I'm at his funeral standing over his coffin and I spit in his face. Other than Connie and her kids, I'd probably get applauded. I'd be a fucking hero. This man has thousands of enemies, and 5 people who actually care about him... three of which don't really have a choice. Connie married into it, which is her own fucking fault. She had her chance to leave, but she didn't for Trey's sake. The other that has a choice is his brother. Usually a brother wouldn't have a choice, but the rest of Paul's family abandoned him, so why wouldn't this brother? His brother's wife even hates him. The three innocents are his kids. But they'll probably eventually hate him too. He'll fuck up their lives just like he fucked up his own.. they'll hate him and this whole feud will probably drive Connie into insanity or to her death. There are no words to express how much pity I feel for my sister. She has a rough life in front of her. She's basically exiled from the people she loves because of her husband. There are certain jobs she can't have because he'll fuck it up for her... And to think.. I used to idolize Paul. HAH! What a chump I am. I think I'll start a pool of money so I can get out of here. Anyone got $10 I can put towards my rent money??