...and so sanity returns.
late on Sunday night I flipped into some manic depressive mood type thing.
So apologies if I scowled at anyone.
I know what sparked it off. Something happens,....you think about it too much,
you dwell on it,..and it grows out of all proportion. Pretty much it dominates you totally until you are unable to
function on any real level.
The good thing is I realize it was the alcohol that sparked it all of,...and not the thoughts that were going through my mind.
That was just standard loneliness coupled at my frustration with lack of ability to socially interact (as normal....)
But now the sun is shinning yet again, and the important thing is to make sure I don't waste my 2 weeks holiday
moping about like a sad fucker.
I have spent the last two days researching the various music played in clubs around the country by viewing the online set lists.
I have been acquiring sed music with a view to playing it at some point in the future should the whole DJ'ing thing take off.
Having been thinking about that, an although It would be great if it actually happened, I think it is more realistic to
stick to what I know. I know about Goth, 80's and alternative because I was there :-)
Although I love a lot of EBM, industral and techno I cant claim an in-depth knowledge.
I guess I have to decide whether I need to acquire more knowledge in this area,
or be happy with things as they are at the moment.
I guess I should really say thinks to those who have given me an opportunity to play stuff so far
considering my limited experience.
As for the future its Caernarfon on Friday, Back for Spellbound on Tuesday, then hopefully to see Ben on his boat, then back for Nightmare on the 11th.
Then back to work :-(
Having read all the reports,...me thinks perhaps I should have gone to infest after all..... May be next year ....
So apologies if I scowled at anyone.
I know what sparked it off. Something happens,....you think about it too much,
you dwell on it,..and it grows out of all proportion. Pretty much it dominates you totally until you are unable to
function on any real level.
The good thing is I realize it was the alcohol that sparked it all of,...and not the thoughts that were going through my mind.
That was just standard loneliness coupled at my frustration with lack of ability to socially interact (as normal....)
But now the sun is shinning yet again, and the important thing is to make sure I don't waste my 2 weeks holiday
moping about like a sad fucker.
I have spent the last two days researching the various music played in clubs around the country by viewing the online set lists.
I have been acquiring sed music with a view to playing it at some point in the future should the whole DJ'ing thing take off.
Having been thinking about that, an although It would be great if it actually happened, I think it is more realistic to
stick to what I know. I know about Goth, 80's and alternative because I was there :-)
Although I love a lot of EBM, industral and techno I cant claim an in-depth knowledge.
I guess I have to decide whether I need to acquire more knowledge in this area,
or be happy with things as they are at the moment.
I guess I should really say thinks to those who have given me an opportunity to play stuff so far
considering my limited experience.
As for the future its Caernarfon on Friday, Back for Spellbound on Tuesday, then hopefully to see Ben on his boat, then back for Nightmare on the 11th.
Then back to work :-(
Having read all the reports,...me thinks perhaps I should have gone to infest after all..... May be next year ....