One is the Lonliest Number
ALright, I'll admit it, I am tired of being single...yeah, its great, but damn it sucks. I think I need to lower my standards a bit. I am tired of waiting to find the guy with ALL the things I look for (far too many to list here), I mean seriously, I am not looking to get married right now. The guy I might have had a crush on...I don't know, I really don't know, and he's leave College Station tomorrow. So that won't really do now will it.
I think the thing that has me really frustrated right now is that I can't seem to find one guy that I am interested in....well, ok, maybe I can, but I can't really bring myself to let them know. I don't seem motivated enough to let them know, either that, or I just fear that I will make a complete ass of myself and it will just not be pretty.
Another thing that bothers me is that even if I find a guy here, I leave by next Saturday. There is not enough time to let a guy know that I like him and then do anything meaningful. ANd Ausitn, don't even get me started; there aren't any guys there that are interesting to me. WEll, maybe I can find one. I'll just hang out with Jenn more and maybe she can find me a nice guy....
My one fear is that I graduate (and that would be by December...so this is a tall order) before I even have one meaningful and/or serious relationship with a guy (other than friends). And seeing as the pickings are slim for the summer (three months) and then three months in school, I would say I don't really have much of a chance. What I can hope for is that I find a guy during the fall semester, and that I will (GOD I HOPE) continue with graduate classes at teh Bush School.
I know, I know, I am going to get the lecture from someone about how I shouldn't worry about it and all this other stuff, but frankly, I am tired of waiting for it to happen. Sometimes you just have a breaking point.
And that's all I have to say about that.
I think the thing that has me really frustrated right now is that I can't seem to find one guy that I am interested in....well, ok, maybe I can, but I can't really bring myself to let them know. I don't seem motivated enough to let them know, either that, or I just fear that I will make a complete ass of myself and it will just not be pretty.
Another thing that bothers me is that even if I find a guy here, I leave by next Saturday. There is not enough time to let a guy know that I like him and then do anything meaningful. ANd Ausitn, don't even get me started; there aren't any guys there that are interesting to me. WEll, maybe I can find one. I'll just hang out with Jenn more and maybe she can find me a nice guy....
My one fear is that I graduate (and that would be by December...so this is a tall order) before I even have one meaningful and/or serious relationship with a guy (other than friends). And seeing as the pickings are slim for the summer (three months) and then three months in school, I would say I don't really have much of a chance. What I can hope for is that I find a guy during the fall semester, and that I will (GOD I HOPE) continue with graduate classes at teh Bush School.
I know, I know, I am going to get the lecture from someone about how I shouldn't worry about it and all this other stuff, but frankly, I am tired of waiting for it to happen. Sometimes you just have a breaking point.
And that's all I have to say about that.