wow do I feel like shit!!
All my wanted from me was to make love to me... And what did I do!!! I went to the club.... He is now angry with me and I dont know what to do... all I know is that he is on his way here and that he is going to probably enter that door really angry with me.. and all I am going to want to do is hug him and hold him... I have never loved anyone somuch in my life!!! What scares me is that he knows this and that he knows no matter whathe does I wouldnt leave him.. that is a dangerous thing for a man too know!!! I think that sometimes he rides on it and I dont know what to do.... I love bernie yes.. but do I neccesarly need to take his shit? I dont know none the less it is not like he treats me badly... but he knows how to push my butttons and how to make feel like my world is crashing down in front of me... I know that it sounds totally dramatic but I swear when we fight that is how I feel and I am so afraid that I am going to lose him.... Why do we fight??? I wish that god could just make us not fight at all... I wish that we could just live in harmony.... I am not saying that we shouldnt think in differently from eachother... but I wish that we could resolve things together in a better manner!!! Anyways that is all for now... Hopefully tomorrow will bring me some sales and some more happiness to my life... I also have a feeling that I was docked for the days that I was sick... I have a feeling that they took it off my base... I am kinda mad about that especailly since that I have the most sales this month... oh well what can I do... I think I just heard Bernies car... Ciao love ya lots!!!