The road to self discovery
They always said that teenage years were hard, but nobody ever said much about life after graduation. Teenage years were peaches and cream compared to the hell most will experience after graduating. You spent your teenage and college years building yourself up, only to end up at the bottom again. And by bottom, I mean you get shit on everywhere you go in the real world. Because of this, all the time you spent in college trying to figure out who you are goes out the window, and you have to start...all over again. Perhaps my case is unique, but many people I have talked to have experienced the same. Your only saving grace is if you can convince yourself that things will get better because they have in the past when you've found yourself in the same situation.
The road to self discovery is an odd one. To me, it's like a highway. Some people say that they spend their whole lives trying to figure out who they are. Some people figure it out early, in their college years, and settle. They are content with life, with the people around them and what their future will bring should they stay on the same path. To them, I say kudos and I wish you all the best.
However, what if those people merely just took the first stop they saw and decided to stay there instead of going further? What if those of us who maybe aren't as balanced and content on a day to day basis are the ones whose paths are the fun-cuts through life? What if instead of stopping in Pennsylvania, we decided to keep truckin' all the way to California and see what happens there?
My life at the present moment is a cornucopia of ups and downs. I know that sooner or later, I'll reach some sort of epiphany and suddenly be ecstatic with who I am and what my life is. But because I have apparently chosen to keep truckin', it will one day reach another down...and consequently another up. It's great fun if you really think about it though, despite all the ups and the downs. Because I'll get to try so many different things, visit so many different cultures on my road to self discovery.
I suppose what I'm writing is all cliche. I guess what I'm trying to say, is that those of you who get really really down, and wish that you had it all figured out, consider this - you are the ones who have a much better ride. You are the ones who got to go on Kingda Ka instead of Runaway Railroad. Those of us who don't always have our shit together have more fun in the end. There's a silver lining in every cloud.