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to simplify things, i'm considering getting together with david. he's lyndsie's ex and the father of 2-4 of her children, this time last year i wouldn't have even looked at him, he was a deadbeat dad who had not enough time for his kids and didn't provide for them, now though, he's working full time, sorting himself out, sorting out his housing situation too, sees his kids regularly (atleast once a week). he's a good guy, bit of a joker but knows how to be serious when the occasion calls for it. and i've always been attracted to him. we've been together a few times, when lyndsie used to persuade me to have 3somes with her bfs (only steven and dave) and i was emotionally attatched to him, which was why i stopped. always been attracted to him, and now he's single (just split up from serena, my god the boy has almost as bad taste in women as i have in men) and i'm single, and the only thing standing in our way is all the complications.
1) i've always believed he's still hung up on lyndsie, she has done a good job of persuading me that its not her he's hung up on any more but the lifestyle she can give him (seems men like all that extra tax credit from 5 kids) and i said directly to him about being hung up on her and he said he wasn't any more, it took him a few yrs to get over her but now he just cares about her as the mother of his kids.
2) boyfriend swapping. steven and david, we'll forget all the other ones that aren't in the equation any more and we'll forget serena, who likes my ex's too. but i started out with steven and she started out with david and we played steven table tennis for a while and eventually she settled down with him, am i really gonna end up in an actual relationship with david?
3) my son. david (big one) has honey blonde hair and blue eyes, and quite similar features to david (little one). i'm worried that if things work out and ru see's them together he will get paranoid about paternity. just to be clear there are no paternity doubts, i know he's not dark but he is 1/4 iranian, he is ru's. i don't want people looking at me and wondering, i already have a poor enough reputation. and almost everybody has heard me saying i wanted to name my son after his father.
4) dave's kids. not sure how to deal with the whole ethan thing, i mean he's steves but dave says he's daves, wish i could figure out if dave thinks he's actually his or if its just cuz dave raised him from a baby. also those kids have had enough upheaval in there lifes and i don't want to cause more
5)name confusion. i hang with lynds a lot and she has baby stephen and steven, i have baby david and potentially david. been tryin to call big one dave to save confusion but everytime i say david he answers so to annoy him back i've been calling him petal. but seriously, isn't two of each just a bit too much?
for now i'm not worryin too much about all that stuff, nothing has happened but there's been lots of flirting over the weekend, then i wasn't expecting it but there has been a LOT of txtin over the last few days
1) i've always believed he's still hung up on lyndsie, she has done a good job of persuading me that its not her he's hung up on any more but the lifestyle she can give him (seems men like all that extra tax credit from 5 kids) and i said directly to him about being hung up on her and he said he wasn't any more, it took him a few yrs to get over her but now he just cares about her as the mother of his kids.
2) boyfriend swapping. steven and david, we'll forget all the other ones that aren't in the equation any more and we'll forget serena, who likes my ex's too. but i started out with steven and she started out with david and we played steven table tennis for a while and eventually she settled down with him, am i really gonna end up in an actual relationship with david?
3) my son. david (big one) has honey blonde hair and blue eyes, and quite similar features to david (little one). i'm worried that if things work out and ru see's them together he will get paranoid about paternity. just to be clear there are no paternity doubts, i know he's not dark but he is 1/4 iranian, he is ru's. i don't want people looking at me and wondering, i already have a poor enough reputation. and almost everybody has heard me saying i wanted to name my son after his father.
4) dave's kids. not sure how to deal with the whole ethan thing, i mean he's steves but dave says he's daves, wish i could figure out if dave thinks he's actually his or if its just cuz dave raised him from a baby. also those kids have had enough upheaval in there lifes and i don't want to cause more
5)name confusion. i hang with lynds a lot and she has baby stephen and steven, i have baby david and potentially david. been tryin to call big one dave to save confusion but everytime i say david he answers so to annoy him back i've been calling him petal. but seriously, isn't two of each just a bit too much?
for now i'm not worryin too much about all that stuff, nothing has happened but there's been lots of flirting over the weekend, then i wasn't expecting it but there has been a LOT of txtin over the last few days