People's games
I like the things people do on purpose to get a reaction. I smile. And I giggle.
I think, what a sad little person this is, to try so hard just to hurt your feelings. Just to see a reaction, just to see if you care enough to react.
I think, wow. Is this what the world is. Out of bounds ways of finding out if someon cares about you. Is everything indirect. Was the notes we passed in class as kids "do you like me circle yes or no" is that what there is. Is that relationships.
I was talking to someone last night, and I realized. I have'nt had a steady relationship in almost a year.
fuckin weird to honestly think about it. But, I am happy as ever. I smile more now than I have probably more than any point in my life.
Self-Direction.
I am happy with myself. Just being me. It's no longer this living up to, this I need to be, or I have to do. Instead. It's a this is who I am. Very comforting.
I think, what a sad little person this is, to try so hard just to hurt your feelings. Just to see a reaction, just to see if you care enough to react.
I think, wow. Is this what the world is. Out of bounds ways of finding out if someon cares about you. Is everything indirect. Was the notes we passed in class as kids "do you like me circle yes or no" is that what there is. Is that relationships.
I was talking to someone last night, and I realized. I have'nt had a steady relationship in almost a year.
fuckin weird to honestly think about it. But, I am happy as ever. I smile more now than I have probably more than any point in my life.
Self-Direction.
I am happy with myself. Just being me. It's no longer this living up to, this I need to be, or I have to do. Instead. It's a this is who I am. Very comforting.