Giving up for the last time......
Yes.. As things have been going i learned that getting close to someone, is the worst idea ever made in my life right now, and the words i love you dont mean anything... Speicaly when you think that you will have that someone again. Steve and i are no longer going to talk, and i slammed my fist through a window because the whole thing
LETS JUST BE FRIENDS..!!!
yeah to make it worse is he saw faye in the morning so i wonder who made him like this now. he doesnt have any reason to why hes like this, to why we got close, and why hes scared and running.. Theres obviously something wrong...
Well Whatever, im through with this whole i love you and then i hate you thing, if he really did love me then he would never put me through such an emotional state.. If you love someone let them go,and if they come back then its meant. i guess i know how my sister feels, her and my brother where high school sweethearts, they got outta school got married and had 2 kids, he cheated and lied and left her for some bitch that he didnt even know...... And crushed my sisters heart.. She will always be in the family, but i think shes the only one i could even dare talk to about this because everything steve has done my brother did to her.. *sighs* thats sad it really is.
I guess my SR. year has been a drama and hasnt been much fun but i only have a lil bit of time to play with now and theres nothin i can do now.. I have lost the one thing that i thought always would be there and love me. But i guess i was wrong, and that there is nothing in the word love because i had a feeling i had never felt before and i will forever wonder if i can get it again..
Anyhow::::
i started talkin to Nick again that guy from alaska and well things are rather interesting and yeah.. We will wait and see how that goes now. So we will see.. Im hoping things go well.
As for everything else, right now i dont wanna talk about it but i do have one thing that is making me happy and thats when i signed the papers to my new car.. GO ME!!.. yeah right that makes me sad too...
From memories to love,
From tears to hugs,
From pain to Heartbreaks,
Theres only one person who will have the part of me that was true.... And he knows who he is, i just wish he would come around more... Thats all and see that i am more then a friend because this will kill me just look at my hand...
LETS JUST BE FRIENDS..!!!
yeah to make it worse is he saw faye in the morning so i wonder who made him like this now. he doesnt have any reason to why hes like this, to why we got close, and why hes scared and running.. Theres obviously something wrong...
Well Whatever, im through with this whole i love you and then i hate you thing, if he really did love me then he would never put me through such an emotional state.. If you love someone let them go,and if they come back then its meant. i guess i know how my sister feels, her and my brother where high school sweethearts, they got outta school got married and had 2 kids, he cheated and lied and left her for some bitch that he didnt even know...... And crushed my sisters heart.. She will always be in the family, but i think shes the only one i could even dare talk to about this because everything steve has done my brother did to her.. *sighs* thats sad it really is.
I guess my SR. year has been a drama and hasnt been much fun but i only have a lil bit of time to play with now and theres nothin i can do now.. I have lost the one thing that i thought always would be there and love me. But i guess i was wrong, and that there is nothing in the word love because i had a feeling i had never felt before and i will forever wonder if i can get it again..
Anyhow::::
i started talkin to Nick again that guy from alaska and well things are rather interesting and yeah.. We will wait and see how that goes now. So we will see.. Im hoping things go well.
As for everything else, right now i dont wanna talk about it but i do have one thing that is making me happy and thats when i signed the papers to my new car.. GO ME!!.. yeah right that makes me sad too...
From memories to love,
From tears to hugs,
From pain to Heartbreaks,
Theres only one person who will have the part of me that was true.... And he knows who he is, i just wish he would come around more... Thats all and see that i am more then a friend because this will kill me just look at my hand...