well this was great
Ok so i ended up being in 97th place tied for it right .. i was sitting at -126 which wasnt that bad i guess.
Well today i went off to bowl at my second house, which was alright i guess, i mean the shot was really decent out there but i would do good on two pairs and then shit on the rest and i was up and down. I guess i may not be fit for this shit anymore.. I dunno.
Today i ended up -91 which was better but not good enough for some people mainly my family i guess. I guess to them i wasnt trying hard enough and shit and that oh i wasnt thrown the ball right and shit.. It was horse shit. But whatever, so me and the guy i was bowling with were doing really well right... *laughs* as soon as i started to do shitty he went with me. It was kinda sad...
anyhow im sitting at -217 right now which i have no idea where that wouldput me what oh well. ill know after tomrrow.. I bowl at 8am.
Right now im sitting in my hotel room woundering what to think about today, i mean i thought i was doing fine but i guess i wasnt. All im doing right now is thinking about chris, its like my mind is doing nothing but thinking of him, him and i have been having a lot of issues and all and we need to talk but right now im basicly crying over him because it feels like his hand has left mine.. I look and see everyone in the bowling alley hanging on the one they love and then i look at myself, my parents hate him, i love him and i cant even bring him to something i do.. I hate it. I just dont get it, i mean i love him he loves me, shouldnt my family be happy for me? I guess not, i guess they want me to be shit all my life. But then again what am i anyhow?
Yes you can tell that i am just in a bad mood. and thinking on top of that of how bad i bowled. i just i dunno..
Im off i need food. Ill be back on later.
Well today i went off to bowl at my second house, which was alright i guess, i mean the shot was really decent out there but i would do good on two pairs and then shit on the rest and i was up and down. I guess i may not be fit for this shit anymore.. I dunno.
Today i ended up -91 which was better but not good enough for some people mainly my family i guess. I guess to them i wasnt trying hard enough and shit and that oh i wasnt thrown the ball right and shit.. It was horse shit. But whatever, so me and the guy i was bowling with were doing really well right... *laughs* as soon as i started to do shitty he went with me. It was kinda sad...
anyhow im sitting at -217 right now which i have no idea where that wouldput me what oh well. ill know after tomrrow.. I bowl at 8am.
Right now im sitting in my hotel room woundering what to think about today, i mean i thought i was doing fine but i guess i wasnt. All im doing right now is thinking about chris, its like my mind is doing nothing but thinking of him, him and i have been having a lot of issues and all and we need to talk but right now im basicly crying over him because it feels like his hand has left mine.. I look and see everyone in the bowling alley hanging on the one they love and then i look at myself, my parents hate him, i love him and i cant even bring him to something i do.. I hate it. I just dont get it, i mean i love him he loves me, shouldnt my family be happy for me? I guess not, i guess they want me to be shit all my life. But then again what am i anyhow?
Yes you can tell that i am just in a bad mood. and thinking on top of that of how bad i bowled. i just i dunno..
Im off i need food. Ill be back on later.