Mother's Day
Of course, on mother's day, I am thankful that I have in laws whom I can show my love and support. I can't even call my mom or text her - because I made the decision to not speak to her - because she believes I was capable of being the thing that so taunted me in my childhood.
I am focusing on the fact that we are taking Christopher's mom and grandma to Shogun for a nice dinner, because it keeps me from thinking of my own Mother - which immediately brings pain, confusion and a longing that I fear will just grow with time.
For those mothers out there, Happy Mother's Day! I wish you all the joy motherhood brings and sincerely pray that I will join you all some day.
I am focusing on the fact that we are taking Christopher's mom and grandma to Shogun for a nice dinner, because it keeps me from thinking of my own Mother - which immediately brings pain, confusion and a longing that I fear will just grow with time.
For those mothers out there, Happy Mother's Day! I wish you all the joy motherhood brings and sincerely pray that I will join you all some day.