Mardi Gras
So this weekend conveniently starts Mardi Gras. It gives me yet another reason to be completely trashy and make a complete ass of myself... wait whats the difference between today and any other day. One bad thing is, I have to work today and I dont know if I will be off in enough time to get there. My friend Danny is supposed to go too but who knows, eh, I guess I'll just live with it, and if worst comes to worst, get there late.
I did however go to the club this recent weekend and I'm not gonna lie. It was hard. I tried being a hard ass and making it seem like it wasn't ackward to see him for the first time in around two weeks. I guess after exerting so many feelings and such to one particular person and then see them go elsewhere, I guess that in itself is a kick in the face and should tell me that I need to move on and be happy. What do I do, not move on and be bitter about it. I just think that someone, like myself, who can give someone something that can be the best thing in the world, and them NOT wanting it... just bothers me.
In any case, today I have a busy day and I would like to see someone. However, I dont think that its going to happen. I checked your away message and I guess all I can say is that I am happy for you. All I wanted for you was to be happy. I realize that now it wasn't me that made you happy so....
later...
I did however go to the club this recent weekend and I'm not gonna lie. It was hard. I tried being a hard ass and making it seem like it wasn't ackward to see him for the first time in around two weeks. I guess after exerting so many feelings and such to one particular person and then see them go elsewhere, I guess that in itself is a kick in the face and should tell me that I need to move on and be happy. What do I do, not move on and be bitter about it. I just think that someone, like myself, who can give someone something that can be the best thing in the world, and them NOT wanting it... just bothers me.
In any case, today I have a busy day and I would like to see someone. However, I dont think that its going to happen. I checked your away message and I guess all I can say is that I am happy for you. All I wanted for you was to be happy. I realize that now it wasn't me that made you happy so....
later...