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[benutzen_mich]

i'm so lost.
i don't remember the last time i felt this miserable.
and i couldn't tell you why.
i've been crying for three days now.
considering the fact that before this week i couldn't tell you the last time i cried,
i find that rather ridiculous.
my body hurts.
and my heart aches.
i want to crawl into a hole and die.
no.
i want..
you know what i want.
and i can't admit it.
and i told you and you...
i'm lost.
another night alone.
alone.
alone.
alone.
alone.
i hate that fucking word.