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I have not writen on here for about 5 years now. i got tired of it all. but im sooooo frustrated about EVERYTHING! heather moved away. i not longer have her by my side. she has this bf she's mad about (mad in a good way) she talks to him more than me. all i really have is hannah. oh wait no anymore....her mom took her away tonight/lastnight, since its passed 12 now. dont ask why. i dont feel like sayin anything now. gosh! everything is so fucked up lately. i just... i just wish everything could work out how i want it to. i wish i could concentrate in school and do better. i wish i would care about brigade when my wanting to be in it is deteorating. i have a new bf. the name is matt. i like him alot. him, stephanie, and kacey i believe may be the best things going on right now. i wish my chest would stop hurting all the time. i wish i could see better. i wish i could be a model like i want. i wish i was prettier, thinner. somthing. eeerrrr!!!! i just want everything to be okay. now. right now. im also turning into the big bitch i never wanted to be. i yelled at bradley cuz im mad at him for lieing. i dont blame myself for being mad cuz he lied. trust is a big thing to me. but i still feel bad about it all. crying seems to be my new hobby. he