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[bentonstein]

I sit here, my puppy downstairs whining. Me feeling terrible. But he has to get used to being left alone. He has to sleep. I have to sleep. I cannot let him sleep with me every night. It is not good in the long run. I have to be a jerk, and I hate it. I feel as miserable as he does. But I can't give in. I have to leave him. I know he doesn't have to go outside, because I took him already. I know he is tired, cuz he ran around a lot today. he is just lonely. He has to cope. I have to cope. It sucks. I have to go do something where I can't hear him. I will crack otherwise. He sounds so pathetic. SHUT UP! Stop barking!

He is safe, he is tired, he is lonely, but he is ok. He needs to adjust. I need to adjust. God dammit I hate this part. Why can't he be grown already. God dammit. SHUT UP!

I'm leaving this room. Maybe I won' hear him in another room.