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I feel cold and empty inside, I cant belive that pushing away someone, that made me feel alive and happy when I was completely lost in pain, was for the best. Im not doing really good right now, and if someone wanted to hangout tonight and keep me company/keep an eye on me, I would be really greatful.
I think i'll be able to drive, and going home is not the best idea right now, while mom is in the hosptial charles and i should see as little as possible.
I need my own place, or at least somewhere to stay for a few days. I need a job, i need alcohol or vic/perc (for my damn fucked up back) , and i need to be held.
I need to be in idaho, with sophie, cause she's the only one I can say without a doubt would do that tonight. Miss you hon, much <3 and no, i don't mind having to share with Yue.
And Brittney, well I really can't find anything to say, cause I know that I can't do anything cept probally make live alot harder for you. So i'll talk to you in private.
-BenBen
I think i'll be able to drive, and going home is not the best idea right now, while mom is in the hosptial charles and i should see as little as possible.
I need my own place, or at least somewhere to stay for a few days. I need a job, i need alcohol or vic/perc (for my damn fucked up back) , and i need to be held.
I need to be in idaho, with sophie, cause she's the only one I can say without a doubt would do that tonight. Miss you hon, much <3 and no, i don't mind having to share with Yue.
And Brittney, well I really can't find anything to say, cause I know that I can't do anything cept probally make live alot harder for you. So i'll talk to you in private.
-BenBen