such a girl i am..
i actually ALMOST had a date for friday. ALMOST. i wouldve if my phone was nicer to me. he called and was actually asking to come here and have dindin with me and shit. a guy. coming to see ME. you shoulda seen me. i was all excited and shit.... i mean... ME UBER EXCITED,... haha. and then SHUT DOWN. major DENIED. when will this opportunity come by me again? maybe never.
in other thoughts... i was thinking why i stopped going to so many things other than my emotional distress.... i just never really found a group here. i mean, i thought i did and then... iono. i just dont belong anywhere.
-buddha nature? they have their own version of profoundness. and hyprocricy.
-band? its coo. people just dont like me much. they tolerate me. but... yeah. the insensitivity has at least become less... apparent. the one redeeming thing about it was if i was gonna play picc. but i fucked myself over for that one. good job me. i kinda wanted to be in concert band... prolly too late now. i miss music.
-EC? i tried to get more involved. theres just not a lot goin on now i guess. maybe im not cool enough for them either, ha..
-aiche? sched conflicts. i need communication skills.
-jass? not jap enough. couldnt even get into the damn class.
-aaa? not chinese enough. ha..
-taiko? some annoyances. i missed playing. but they stuck me with people who couldnt play. i got annoyed. not that hard to keep a beat, people! i guess too late to start that back up too
-nscs? time conflicts. iono what id really do anyway. tho the music tutoring coulda been cool
-ccc? didnt talk to anyone anyway. no need for a janice there. wanted to volunteer at the lgbtrc... but i dont think they want me either.
-kdvs? yeah, prolly not coo enough for them. i woulda been a shitty dj anyway, ha.
-classical notes? haha. they just plain didnt want me! hopefully tutoring will prove more prosperous, haha.
anything else im forgetting? i wanted to do badminton, too... but sched conflicts. and im prolly not good enough anymore. my skills have definitely decreased.
well, back to my world of writing my ENG45 lab and ECH80 paper and studystudystudy for all those finals. woo. hoo. oh, and being sad with nomie about july 4th. we are two sad people. ha. sometimes.
in other thoughts... i was thinking why i stopped going to so many things other than my emotional distress.... i just never really found a group here. i mean, i thought i did and then... iono. i just dont belong anywhere.
-buddha nature? they have their own version of profoundness. and hyprocricy.
-band? its coo. people just dont like me much. they tolerate me. but... yeah. the insensitivity has at least become less... apparent. the one redeeming thing about it was if i was gonna play picc. but i fucked myself over for that one. good job me. i kinda wanted to be in concert band... prolly too late now. i miss music.
-EC? i tried to get more involved. theres just not a lot goin on now i guess. maybe im not cool enough for them either, ha..
-aiche? sched conflicts. i need communication skills.
-jass? not jap enough. couldnt even get into the damn class.
-aaa? not chinese enough. ha..
-taiko? some annoyances. i missed playing. but they stuck me with people who couldnt play. i got annoyed. not that hard to keep a beat, people! i guess too late to start that back up too
-nscs? time conflicts. iono what id really do anyway. tho the music tutoring coulda been cool
-ccc? didnt talk to anyone anyway. no need for a janice there. wanted to volunteer at the lgbtrc... but i dont think they want me either.
-kdvs? yeah, prolly not coo enough for them. i woulda been a shitty dj anyway, ha.
-classical notes? haha. they just plain didnt want me! hopefully tutoring will prove more prosperous, haha.
anything else im forgetting? i wanted to do badminton, too... but sched conflicts. and im prolly not good enough anymore. my skills have definitely decreased.
well, back to my world of writing my ENG45 lab and ECH80 paper and studystudystudy for all those finals. woo. hoo. oh, and being sad with nomie about july 4th. we are two sad people. ha. sometimes.