at least i had a few last moments of fun yesterday...<3 to nomie
i hate crying. i hate not knowing things.
i dont want to be here. i should be at home. what if something happens and im not there. what if i never see her again. and itll be my fault cuz im here and didnt go see her. iono.
i tried calling hec. he didnt answer. he didnt call back. i guess it was better that way. i cant always call him when i start getting emotional or cry or feel lonely or whatever.... he was always there before. i dont know what he thinks anymore.
fuck. and thats what i start thinking about. i have so much shit to do.
...i have to be stronger for my family if nothing else.
i dont want to be here. i should be at home. what if something happens and im not there. what if i never see her again. and itll be my fault cuz im here and didnt go see her. iono.
i tried calling hec. he didnt answer. he didnt call back. i guess it was better that way. i cant always call him when i start getting emotional or cry or feel lonely or whatever.... he was always there before. i dont know what he thinks anymore.
fuck. and thats what i start thinking about. i have so much shit to do.
...i have to be stronger for my family if nothing else.