just one of those days

[bensalemjoe]

ok well people this is one of those post that everyone yells at me for but it gonna come cause the only thing that helps me not do somethin stupid is to know that people care and unfortunately the only way i seem to find out that people care is to write these... i know some people try to help me like katy, lauren, etc but all i can ever seem to think is that they dont know what its like cause they havent been single for 21 yrs and some change... i wish just once i could have someone that loves me the way i love them and have a chance to be happy and be able to drown these thoughts which i hate so much out of my head, finally putting them to rest... of course that will only happen in my dreams so ill never be able to get these damn thoughts out of my head and will end up alone, depressed and friendless because i drove them all away with my petty need to be happy and feel normal... well its time to sleep and hope i have a good dream cause like i said that stuff will only happen in my dreams

till later days all who read this