A baby makes 2
I got to hold my first baby the other day... I always kinda shyed away from holding them saying that I was afraid to drop them, and of course I really was. I didn't want to hurt something so small and fragile. The other day I got to hold a little boy named hudson, and well he was rather plopped down into my arms. He has just fallen asleep and his little breathing at to be the most calming sensation I had in a long time. He had a cute little snore and I just felt his warm chubby body clinging to mine. It was such a warmth that i really can't describe. I felt so happy. Though my thoughts still raced about dropping him or moving him around too roughly in my arms. I will always be scared of that I think. I dunno though maybe not. Once I have one of my own I might be more comfortable. Though it was not all roses cause once he started waking up and crying he was not quit as pleasant but in those mere moments he gave me a life that i never had before. So now I feel that I am ready for that part of my life if it comes and finds me I will be ready. I kinda hope it does soon.