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[bennyboyyy]

I only wonder how long you've been feeling lost and separated from me, only to be around my horrid presence everyday when we were together. I know we had a communication barrier somehow, and my shyness probably made you feel disgusted. I guess we weren't meant to be together. I didn't really matter to you. I wish I did though. I wish I did not have any anger issues but I guess being around you did not calm my anger enough. Sorry you had to see the bad side of me, sorry you feel clueless and lost and all by yourself knowing that you'd break my heart telling me that you weren't feeling the connection anymore. Could we have fixed it? I don't think, I would try harder, i would try much harder. I would keep trying and trying and trying, to not go to my angry side, to never go to my angry side when I'm around you.
Ohwell, Life goes on. I will always have a soft spot for you. If you ever think no one can ever understand you, I'm right here. I'm right here to tell you how awesome you are, how down-to-earth and how driven you are. Take care my friend.