A day, like no other... or every other, I'm not really sure
Well, life goes on... and on, and on, and on...
I almost feel like each day is almost a repeat of the previous one.
I can hardly tell what day it is anymore. They all seem to blend so seemlessly. There doesn't seem to be any change. If I work, I work, if I don't, I game, the same games, with the same people.
Each day I feel my mind slip, just a little more. I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle. The medicine isn't really helping anymore, my personal writings are more like rants about how much I hate the world, and I just feel so frightened about everything.
I think I need to take some time off from gaming, maybe not a lot of time, maybe forever. I think I need a break from the norm, and I feel like I need to breathe some fresh air. I don't want to be alone this weekend. I'm afraid I'll do something I might regret. The more time I have alone, the more time I feel alone, the more time I am alone, with these thoughts, with these feelings, the more and more depressed I get. I'm not really sure what I need, because I don't have anyone I can talk to around here. I'm afraid of what I'll do to myself, so I need to seek more help, I need to be able to talk to someone who won't question me, for any reason. I need someone who can listen. I need someone who can confort me. I need someone...
I think I'm going home this weekend
I almost feel like each day is almost a repeat of the previous one.
I can hardly tell what day it is anymore. They all seem to blend so seemlessly. There doesn't seem to be any change. If I work, I work, if I don't, I game, the same games, with the same people.
Each day I feel my mind slip, just a little more. I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle. The medicine isn't really helping anymore, my personal writings are more like rants about how much I hate the world, and I just feel so frightened about everything.
I think I need to take some time off from gaming, maybe not a lot of time, maybe forever. I think I need a break from the norm, and I feel like I need to breathe some fresh air. I don't want to be alone this weekend. I'm afraid I'll do something I might regret. The more time I have alone, the more time I feel alone, the more time I am alone, with these thoughts, with these feelings, the more and more depressed I get. I'm not really sure what I need, because I don't have anyone I can talk to around here. I'm afraid of what I'll do to myself, so I need to seek more help, I need to be able to talk to someone who won't question me, for any reason. I need someone who can listen. I need someone who can confort me. I need someone...
I think I'm going home this weekend