巨大な失望 A Huge Disappointment
It had been a long time since I last did an entry in LiveJournal. I am not a huge fan of blogging but I find that the net is indeed a sanctuary where I can write about my frustrations and release everything through words. Gonna just talk about my real life and things that happened in Final Fantasy Vanadiel.
しばらく何もアップデートしなかったので、今回はリアルとヴァナディ-ルについて、書くつもりです。ブログを書くのが好きじゃないけど、ブログは色々フラストレーションに関して書く良い場所だと思います。
Real Life
Food wise, I have enjoyed a hell lot. I just had my platoon dinner last week in Noble House Restaurant in UIC Building Shenton Way. It's buffet Ala-Carte Chinese cuisine. Gosh it was nice. We ate to our heart's content. And guess what? The price's only SGD$32.00++. You get crabs, big nice drunken prawns and stuff. Didn't really take any pictures but this is something I will wanna recommend my friends.
All thanks to Yihong, aka Catcifer, he brought me down to this Japanese restaurant called Akira for buffet lunch. The range of food was ok. Most of the dishes were delicious. However they were a little too salty. I am a huge fan of salty food so I didn't mind a bit. The Chawa mushi, Takoyaki, Potato Salad and Shishamo Tempura were awesome. Rest were rather ordinary I will say, but better than Honjin (a place where I frequent in the past).
Few days back, I met up with my good buddy Mark. Weixiang couldn't come due to family commitment. Both of them were used to be my Counterstrike mentors in Melbourne. However due to our work and our lives, our gathering became scarce. However we always tried our best to meet up regularly. Weixiang's expecting a baby soon. Congratulation Weixie! Me and Mark had our usuals in Aburiya. YAKUNIKU FULL ATTACK! However it burnt my pocket. SGD$51.00 [Goodbye].
Application for Japanese school (Matsudo International School) had been done and dusted. All me and Xiang Yu are doing now is simply sit and wait. I am worried about being rejected though. And since the school had requested for my original certificates, I am worried that my certificates might be lost. Anyway there's nothing I can do now. But wait....................
As for work, I have already informed my Japanese boss Mr. Ota that I will be tendering my resignation once my school's confirmed. But more or less, I have told him about me resigning during the period of 21st to 30th November. I lost 2 projects so far since I last returned to work from army reservist. I think my previous boss who left the company to join our partner ClearEdge Production had a hand in hijacking the deals but I don't really wanna point fingers. I guess many Singaporeans will give the lame reason of "I got no choice as I have a family to feed". Very typical, doesn't go down well with me but it's part of life.
リアル
最近僕は友達と、色々なレストランで美味しい食べ物を食べたんです。今すべてのレストランが皆に紹介します。
ノーブルハウス Shenton Way：先週軍隊の友達とそのレストランに行きました。中華料理アラカルトビュッフェのレストランです。食べ物も油っこくないし、値段も高くないんです。一人はシンガポール37ドールぐらい。 レストランのメニューには様々な種類の料理があります。例えば：Drunken Prawns, Buddha Jumps over the Wall, Steam Crab with Egg Yolk。超美味しいです。
あきら＠Link Hotel：先週前にYihongさんは僕をあきらレストランに連れて行った。日本料理アラカルトビュッフェのレストランです。一人は３２＋＋シンガポールドールぐらいです。そのレストランのたこ焼とか、シシャモてんぷらとちゃわむし、じゃがいもサラダは一番美味しいです。他のはまあまあです。あきらの食べ物はしょっぱいです。でも僕はそんな味ある食べ物大好きですね。あきらの食物は確実に僕がいつも行ったのホンジンレストランの食物より美味しいと思います。
あぶりや：先週金曜日に一番いい友達マークさんとまたHolland Villageのあぶりや焼く肉屋行きました。シンガポールには一番美味しい焼く肉屋だけど、値段も高い。50シンガポールドール必要です。焼肉！！全力攻撃します！！！今回はネギ塩カルビとワサビ鶏肉ととんとろ塩ネギとしいたけネギと豆腐チゲと上カルビを食べました。。Weixiangさんは来られなかったけど。。そろそろ赤ちゃん生きてると思うので、家族のために忙しくなった。
松戸という日本語学校も受けた。今あの学校の返事待ってるところです。入学できるといいんですけど。。。
先週社長に仕事やめるに関してを教えました。もし入学できると、11月末頃、仕事やめる。軍隊訓練から戻って以来、僕は二つのプロジェクトが誰かに盗まれた。昔に仕事やめた社長（Lewee)は今ライバルの会社に勤めています。それで昔今の会社の客さん全部彼に盗まれた。仕方ない。彼の理由は「今家族あるので、もし仕事がんばらないと、困ります」と言った。僕にとって、家族あっても、お金がなくても、もしその方法でビジネスをするとダメだと思います。でも仕方ない。シンガポールにはLeweeと同じ様な人が沢山居るんですね。巨大な失望です。
Final Fantasy
As for Final Fantasy, it had been and is still a frustrating period for me. Firstly I have always been putting a hell lot of effort to ToD HNM by waking up late at night and it had sort of affected my sleep. I always expected my linkshell to help out one another in doing so. However it seems as of late, the interests in all members died off. There are people who still need items in linkshell, and for my part, I like to fight big HNM even though they may seem repetitive. More or less I am now being treated like a stranger or an enemy in the linkshell. The feeling's weird. With most of the sacks receiving the Salvage gears, the activities just simply died off. 3 HQs popped in Japan's golden time but no one's willing to hunt. I have also been trying my best to keep track of the timing as well but it seems my efforts simply goes to waste. People like Haijin in the past used to promised to help ToD stuffs when I couldn't. But it seems he is more interested in King Arthro than HNMs now. I personally wanted items as well. I am a person who is willing to work my ass off to earn items. I am definitely not someone who simply lots and lots for items or someone who gets an item and leave the ls. Whenever I could, I wanna do salvage with Juventus too. In fact I hate to do with strangers. But Juventus only does salvage most of the time with "specified people". Very frustrating for me as well. I get shafted most of the time. I hardly spend time in the pearl this week. Honestly don't understand why this sudden change. I don't wanna start a drama nor go ranting in linkshell as my Japanese's not very good to out-argue some of them. With effect from yesterday, I decided to take a 2-3 weeks break from Juventus. I have always tried my best to understand Japanese and the Japanese culture. But with this kinda attitude that people give me, it makes it very hard to bridge this gap of culture and friendship. Maybe Sheila, you can enlighten me on this issue. Honestly I like the LS a lot. But it may have come to the point of having frustration than having joy of playing the game during my free time. I am never the person to simply get items and ditch the ls, hence I wanna give it a try again after 2-3 weeks break. But if this attitude continues, I think I will simply move on.
I have also completed ToAU's mission. Took the ranged attack ring as reward. I am toying with the idea of levelling corsair eventually as well. The story is nice but not as epic as CoP. And the reward (Glory Crown) is a big disappointment.
Yesterday I spoke to Zetton from TE. He told me about being envious of people from SpikeFlail or AV or EC. Ragnarok has now become a EN HNM friendly server. He told me EN HNM LS hunts 24/7 while Japanese does it only for 2-3 hours during the 20:00Hrs - 00:00Hrs packet. Even while the Japanese camp during those kinda time, there are a huge turn out of EN HNM LS competitors. He was hoping that SE splits the server to JP and EN only soon. I fully understands his frustrations. However tossing and turning while reading my book before I sleep, I thought about what he said, and I felt it is really a situation that cannot be helped. I gotta take my hats off AbsoluteVirtual for their members' commitment. No doubt that I have doubts about their means of winning pull but I ain't taking the credit of their members' commitment away. This is neither a flame nor sarcasm but more or less a complement.
ヴァナディ-ル
今は私のためのいらだたしい期間でした。僕はｌｓの為にいつも一生懸命がんばった。計測して、イベント行って。。深夜に起きて計測したし。。リアルで毎日すごい眠くなったし。。。仕事もまじめにやれない。。計測いけない時に私は、いつもLSがお互いを助けると期待しました。でも最近皆のやる気なくなりそうだった。今週の水曜日頃裏終わった後、すぐベッドに入る。深夜3時頃起きて、アスピ計測しました。時間もｌｓメッセジーで書いた。木曜日は仕事残業したので、計測できなかった。それで廃人さんに計測するのを助かれると思った。でもｌｓの皆はジャグのカニにより多くの興味を持っています。残念。計測しても狙わない。また残念。
いつもｌｓとサルベージやりたいけど、水曜日裏あるので無理です。でも他の日は皆は固定でサルベージあるし。。僕は野良とやりたくないけど、ｌｓとやるチャンスもないので、残念でした。最近は皆すごい冷たいだし。。。僕は今、LSの皆から敵か他人のように思われていると感じます。。。巨大失望です。僕は希望アイテムはあるけど、特別に欲張り人じゃない。でも釣り負けたくない人です。短気な人です。ｌｓと強くなるために自分の装備集まるために一生懸命ベストでがんばる人ですよ！FFもだんだん楽しくなくなった。。。もし皆の家族ないなら、生活楽しいですか？僕にとって、ヴァナディールでは、LSは家族であると考えられています。家族が冷たくなってもまだ人生やFFが楽しいでしょうか？
来週から2週間-3週間ごろLSから休む予定です。もし3週間後状態と態度直さないと、僕は多分FFかｌｓ辞める。。僕は人間です、そして、気持ちを持っています。 程度まで、私はゲームで傷ついています。
最近貰った装備
アトルガンの報酬
裏取った装備
Kamaliiさん売ってくれた大袖。。Thanks Kamalii For the Nice Response..
二ヶ月前にユベから貰った剣
キアンさん釣ったのアスピ！！！！
ユベに助かってくれたのズポン
先週メリポやった時に、最高のスラグダメジーやりました。