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When it all had the very best of me I did not know what to do. Drinking and partying every night , getting stoned, sure it was fun. But something helped me change for the better. This is an emotion, i feel it more than ever, I never had it before and it made me feel secure and at home. I never want it to go away. I guess i have taken a few things for granted. The power of a friendship can break through anything. Im sorry for what i have done. I try to do things to make things right. I am a tough guy who is emotionless yet more emoitonal than anyone i know. I can hide feelings as strong as I can express them. I do not want the emptiness again. Thats what made me who I was and who I am now is someone I can look up to. I dont want to ruin the way things were going. I guess what people hate most is change, and if that has to be done then let it be. I have fallen hard many times in my past, and the outcome has made me who i am today. All decisions we make in the past make us who we are today. Now instead of holding my good luck charm close to mee so tight I can let it loose now and thank it for all it has done for me. Nothing has EVER stood by me and been so faithfull to me. I need to realize that i cant depend on luck to keep my head up. I cant confide in anyone anymore, i dont know who to turn to. growing up should not be this painfull. I really wish people did not betray me the way they have. I do not like being lied to. I do not lie to the ones i care about. If there was anyone to thank it would be you. I will never forget about you, and i will hold you close to me, I will keep our memory box secure and look back at it for comfort. Thank you for being the only person who comes close to understanding me. You are not going anywhere, you are always here with me.