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Why?? I dont think i should feel threatened in my own house. Close up your items.. get a lock, protect them.. Really.. why the fuck should I.. I got all my shit right where i can get it.. theres no reason why it should not be removed by anyone. And if it is, your the one I feel sorry for.. Its not right.. Every day of my life it hurts me soo much.. I want her back.. i want her back sooo bad.... ive missed her for the past year now.. growing up.. everything we did together... inseperable we were.. unforgettable moments.. then this fuckin bullshit happens.. its like taking a family and seperating each person in the family for good.. sending each person to a seperate continent.. we dont know eachother anymore.. This KILLS me every day of my life.. I dont know why i have to live with it... every day that goes by is another day lost. and nobody seems to givva shit.. I try.. i know i try.. but sometimes trying isnt good enough.. as a matter of fact trying is never good enough.. we will never get her back .. we will never see her again. she is now a mirror image of what was a beautifull and intelligent person.. now shes following the shadow of nothingness, emptiness, and ugliness... you got accepted to manhatanville. maybe you could of done something there...you had to follow your friends where they went.. you had writing awards.. my god your such a great fuckin writer.. even in your recent writings... my god..it breaks my heart.. i dont think actually no... I HAVE NEVER BEEN LET DOWN LIKE THIS BEFORE... with the tears rolling down her eyes.. the concern she had and the scared look on her face..i realized she does not deserve it. with over 60 years of age.. she needs to hear about her 22 year old grand daughter and all the bullshit that shes in..
i wish the crying would stop
i wish i could change time
i wish i could of killed that mother fucker before he stepped into your life
i wish you werent so easily influenced
i wish i can re live all those times we had together
i wish i could of done something about it when i suspected it
i wish that all of our precious posesions were just misplaced instead of gone for good
i wish for alot... but what i really want is my sister back
i wish the crying would stop
i wish i could change time
i wish i could of killed that mother fucker before he stepped into your life
i wish you werent so easily influenced
i wish i can re live all those times we had together
i wish i could of done something about it when i suspected it
i wish that all of our precious posesions were just misplaced instead of gone for good
i wish for alot... but what i really want is my sister back