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[benlee_]

So jess and I r no more - what the futur holds 4 us is ne1s guess. She is one of the nicest, most fun gorgeous person i have ever met. I really do care about her very much. I feel caught between a rock and a hard place - i cant go on arguin all the time but i dont want to lose her....where does that leave me?? I dont want to hurt her - i no

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[jessicarse]

Thanks so much Jilly, that really helps and I hope that'll be the case in the future. I've no hard feelings against Ben at all, about anything, I know what I did wrong, I shoulder the blame for it all, I hold nothing against him whatsoever. I'm grateful now Ben that you're talking to me, not that I'd blank you or anything anyways cuz it'd hurt me too much not talking to you, and if I say anything that you feel uncomfortable me saying, that hurts you or anything like that, just kick me, let me know cuz I don't want to hurt you in any way. I'm in no way out for revenge, I've no need to seek revenge against you, I'm in no stupid pathetic loserish competition with you to see who can find a rebound/get with someone first, cuz as I said, I really couldn't hurt you in any way, shape or form, I feel I've done too much of that already.
I just need some time to myself, I'm sorry if I turn into a bit of a recluse over the next few weeks or whatever, it's nothing against anyone else, I just need to think things through, clear stuff up in my head and get some work done!
As I said to you before Ben, I'm still here for you, and I hope whatever happens we'll still be working towards building up a close friendship, I'd still love to have you in my life, however things may work out.
Hmmm that was a bit sentimental and emotional, but all true all the same. L'antisemitisme en France..... better get cracking on my French now. Good day to you xxxxxxx