what do you do with the pieces of a broken heart?
Greg got the job in North Carolina and he's moving next week. I've been sort of not talking to him much because when I do it makes me cry. I don't know what I'm going to do without Greg. He's the only person I talk to when I avoid everyone else and he's the only person who makes me feel better no matter what's going on. I'm really sad about this.
Greg is pretty much the only thing keeping me from kicking Ben's ass, so I'm thinking once he moves Ben and I will get along even less. The other night he invited Mandy over (even though he said millions of times he didn't want to hang out with Mandy anymore because she almost got him in a lot of trouble for drugs). He told Leah that she and Mandy would get along really well and that Leah made the wrong choice by being with me. He's a fucking moron. Last night he left me another note saying to leave him out of our "loving relationship" (me and Leah) which is funny because HE'S the one always talking about us.
I hate Ben as much as it's possible to hate anyone. I want to make him ten times as miserable as he's made me, and I plan on doing it. First I have to move all of my stuff out of the house, and I think I'm going to just stay with my mom for a bit until I move into my apartment. I really don't want to be stuck living with Ben for another three weeks. That would be unbearable.
He always deadbolts the door to lock me out. The next time he does, I swear to god I'm going to smash the window.
Frankly I don't care if by the time I leave everyone thinks I'm psychotic. I don't care what Ben & friends think of me. I just want to get my apartment, live alone, NOT party, go to school and make something out of my life before I turn into one of them. I get a lot more done when I have more time alone, and I think I'd rather just keep things simple for awhile until I straighten out my life a little bit.
For real though I'm thinking about going to California to live in a buddhist community. I feel like a few months there would be pretty life-changing. Everyone else says it sounds like a cult.
Greg is pretty much the only thing keeping me from kicking Ben's ass, so I'm thinking once he moves Ben and I will get along even less. The other night he invited Mandy over (even though he said millions of times he didn't want to hang out with Mandy anymore because she almost got him in a lot of trouble for drugs). He told Leah that she and Mandy would get along really well and that Leah made the wrong choice by being with me. He's a fucking moron. Last night he left me another note saying to leave him out of our "loving relationship" (me and Leah) which is funny because HE'S the one always talking about us.
I hate Ben as much as it's possible to hate anyone. I want to make him ten times as miserable as he's made me, and I plan on doing it. First I have to move all of my stuff out of the house, and I think I'm going to just stay with my mom for a bit until I move into my apartment. I really don't want to be stuck living with Ben for another three weeks. That would be unbearable.
He always deadbolts the door to lock me out. The next time he does, I swear to god I'm going to smash the window.
Frankly I don't care if by the time I leave everyone thinks I'm psychotic. I don't care what Ben & friends think of me. I just want to get my apartment, live alone, NOT party, go to school and make something out of my life before I turn into one of them. I get a lot more done when I have more time alone, and I think I'd rather just keep things simple for awhile until I straighten out my life a little bit.
For real though I'm thinking about going to California to live in a buddhist community. I feel like a few months there would be pretty life-changing. Everyone else says it sounds like a cult.