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[benjifulgirl]

i hate feeling alone

i hate crying
sometimes i really wish i had a proper best friend
to count on
to be there
all the time

to not upset me.
n if we ever fell out
it would be like once every 6 months or something

n we wouldnt get jealous of eachother
or argue
or bitch about eachother.

i just fucking need someone i trust with everything
that can be here on nights like this
on nights when i feel like theres no one at points.
to just come round n sit in with me.
watch tv..
go home or stay whatever.

who doesnt mind that my house is a fucking mess.
cause im theonly person that bothers to try and keep it
cause my dad doesnt care about that stuff anymore.
and my brothers 13 all he does is wrestle and eat.

i dont give a shit.
if you think this is for attention.
dont even message me about it i dont care
i just havent got things out like this in a long fucking time.
my lifes fucking hard right now.

& i actually dont think i can get anymore un-confident or insecure right now.
as much as you might think i cover it up.