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[benjamin_carey]

I'm suffering from a huge bout of Postitis, or something close to it. Linds, you're going to have to keep me in check so I update for these poor people. Not that I'm totally interesting or anything, but you know how it is. The fans want to know everything that goes on. I'd assume that Karl, Lee, Darren and Dan all want to know too, but they have

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[benjamin_carey]

I don't know.

I really don't know.

I REALLY REALLY don't know!

I'm a lost cause. I don't know what to say. I don't know what, or who, or where or when or anything!It's like I'm just empty right now, and I guess it doesn't matter how much I try to cover it, someone always sees straight through me. I know I'm being a pain, but I just can't help it right now. I wish I could.

It's frustrating to me because I have no direction at this point, I'm wandering aimlessly when people around me are moving on. I'm wondering what I want without a single decent thought in my head. I guess for now I just want to be around my friends and the people that care about me, it's the best I can do for right now, and I've got to be happy with that until I can find the next step.

Maybe someone will be able to talk me out, maybe they won't. Maybe it's just something that I'm being stupid about when it's starring me in the face. Whatever it is, I'm better off being around the people I am than sitting alone somewhere.

Oh, tell Karl he's got email when he bothers to check it.

[the_nut_house]

I checked and replied, bonehead. Answer me.

And you are not a lost cause. You're me, five weeks ago, tired and listless and lonely, and I'm sorry--wish I could do more to help, mate, really do.

Maybe something good's coming around the corner--you deserve it.

Now get out of that comfy bed of yours--yeah, that is a killer mattress--and go do something. I know Linds is at work but the boys are home--why not see if Dan will go with you to look at guitars? That's all you guys ever used to talk about, you, Lee and Dan. I'd just sit there, listen to you guys babble on in your foreign-guitar-language, play with my little drumstick...

Karl, finally yawning

[the_nut_house]

Maybe it's just something that I'm being stupid about when it's starring me in the face.

Don't be afraid to open your eyes and look down.

Karl, who in my case, had to look up

[benjamin_carey]

I wrote you back mate, and I'm hoping that it makes sense. I finally came to a realization about myself, but I think you were a good person to hear it for now.

Everything else is well under control.

I'm going to call Dan and see if he's up to it. Don't know how bad doing that would be on his emotions right now. If not, I'll just got over and hang out.

Hey Linds, if you get this when you get home, give me a call, I'll leave my cell on. I want to go out for dinner tonight.

Ring Ring!

[simply_linds]

Hey, I'd love to go out tonight--uh, with you. Sure. How about that paintballing? I'd like that.

Beats the hell out of bowling.

Linds

Re: Ring Ring!

[the_nut_house]

Linds, this cracks me up--I just posted at the_nut_house that I thought you *hated* bowling--go have fun with Ben. He needs the company, I'm thinking.

Watch out for Ben though if you guys do go paintballing--he hit me in the arse and...well...and I had swell...bruises for days--Lee made it all better though. Um, TMI there, I'm thinking. I'm getting punchy. Damn I'm tired. Wish I was there instead of here. I'm ready to come home.

Sounds like you guys had a great time Saturday--I have a feeling Ben's left a thing or two out and I want to hear the full scoop. So give.

K, suffering from insomnia in a bad way

I'm here, I'm finally here.

[benjamin_carey]

It was a 30-fricking hour long flight from LaGuardia to Melbourne, but I made it. It's about 8:15am here and I just checked into my hotel. But I really need to hustle. I have a lunch meeting with a new client.

Karl, I've already booked my flight for tomorrow morning from Melbourne to Brisbane. I'll be arriving in Brisbane at 9:50am. It's flight 415, I think. Do I need to get a car, or can you pick me up?

Egads, I'm tired. I slept a lot of the trip, but my body clock is completely screwed up. I need a shower like you wouldn't believe. Thank goodness the hotel had internet connections or I would go crazy. I had something like 40 emails at my work addy. >oP

Talk to you soon!

A very excited Brooke, who is now going to take the world's longest shower

Sorry, Ben...

[benjamin_carey]

That I posted this to your account. I was just trying to follow Karl's posts around the LJ and this is where I landed.

I'm glad Karl was able to help you. Nothing pulls him out of a funk better than helping other people it seems. *g*

You take care. Have fun and try not to hurt Linds like you hurt my sweetie, Karl, at paintball. :o)

Re: I'm here, I'm finally here.

[the_nut_house]

No one takes longer showers than me.

Karl's finally asleep, Brooke--he finally passed out. I woke up to find him falling over onto his laptop--took it away from him, lay him down, and gave him a nice relaxing backrub. Finally all the tension of the last few days seems to have left him and he fell asleep before I could finish. And yeah, for once I'm glad he fell asleep on me. *grins* I was getting worried, really. Glad you are coming, will distract him for a bit while we wait on word from the solicitor we hired to stop Melissa.

We'll meet you at the airport, no worries.

Lee

Re: Ring Ring!

[simply_linds]

Um, my version of what we did Saturday? Sure, erm, where to start. It was a great day even though I woke up with an ice water bath--but he paid for that later, because I fell asleep in HIS bed--cos mine was soaked still. Not that I minded--his bed beats that twin any day (and yes, I do have the only twin in this house, it's more like a cot actually). I would've slept in your room Karl but it didn't feel, erm, right, if you know what I mean. *laughs*

After I took a shower we decided since we both had a bunch of laundry and didn't want to wait on it all day at the house we hunted down a Laundromat. Found one near a little coffee house, where we ended up having lunch. Ben's treat--I get my first paycheck this Friday, finally, and I'll pay you back, Ben. Being broke sucks (thanks to the Bastard).

Speaking of him, I didn't think about him all day, I don't think. Maybe once or twice, but not really. I felt… I don't know, can't explain it really, but knowing Ben's willing to kick the bastard's ass for me made me feel, well, safe. I haven't felt like that in quite awhile, not looking over my shoulder all the time, if you know what I mean, even though I know he doesn't know where I am. Guess a part of me doesn't really believe he won't track me down still, but given he's got everything I had--all my money--he probably won't. I just feel sorry for the next idiot who falls for his charm and good looks and his clothes and car--all the crap I bought for him. Yeah, I'm the jackass for falling for him in the first place. Young and stupid, that's me.

Anyway, didn't mean to go on. It's quiet here at work and I'm antsy, want to leave--Ben I get off at four, so hope you'll be back if you and Dan went guitar hunting. I'll wait at the house at the house for you. Maybe take a shower without fear of running out of hot water, since Lee's not here.

Saturday. I keep getting distracted. Guess I'm excited about tonight. Okay, well, after we ate, which was really good, kick-ass sandwiches at this place (I even let Ben talk me into a veggie sandwich, and I liked it though I'm a die-hard beef man), Ben made me laugh so much people were looking at us, and then we went and played laser tag--Ben beat my butt, let me tell you. Played with some kids, like Ben said--I think they thought we were nuts. I crashed once into the wall but Ben was right there for me and picked me up, brushed me off and then shot me after he was sure I was okay--the arsehole. Heh heh. I got him back, though (and just wait until paintballing--heh heh! I still have to exact revenge for the ice water wake up!).

I guess I was tired though after that--haven't been sleeping good, kinda can't get it out of my mind that the Bastard's not going to come in and, well, never mind about that. What Ben didn't say was I fell asleep in the movie. Sorry about leaning all over you, mate, but I guess I really was more tired than I thought. At least I caught the ending. Didn't understand it, but hey.

Went messing around town after that, bought ice cream, just enjoyed walking around and seeing stuff. Being with Ben. I haven't had much chance to explore yet but he has and showed me some cool places I'd like to try out. It was just, you know, nice. Really nice. Then of course went home and discovered my bed was still soaked--guess I should've stripped the sheets that morning--but we stayed up a bit, playing Final Fantasy and, and I guess I fell asleep again. Woke up later and Ben had taken my shoes off for me but I was too warm and comfortable, erm, and, well, I just didn't want to move. Ben was fast asleep and, erm, I didn’t want to wake him. I didn't want to leave so I just pulled the covers up over us and went back to sleep.

I slept better than I have in weeks. But when I woke up, you were gone. And I hardly saw you the last couple of days. I hope I didn't do or say anything to make you want to stay away the last few days, Ben. If I did, I'm really sorry, mate.

Sorry this got so long.

Linds

Re: Ring Ring!

[benjamin_carey]

Hey, we need to talk about a couple things, but it can wait until we get back. I'm sorry that I've been scarce, but it wasn't you, not in a way you're thinking. Just relax, and we'll air it out later.

Re: Ring Ring!

[simply_linds]

Okay mate just as long as it wasn' t anything I said, no worries.

I'm ready to take off now so let's go get Dan-O. Yeah, boys' night out--been a hell of a long time since I've played with Dan.

We'll talk later. Right now I'm seriously starving.

Linds

Need bail money?

[the_nut_house]

Hmm, I'm intrigued by all that's going on around here. Karl's solidly asleep (his inner clock is seriously screwed up) finally so I'll just have to wait until you guys post again to find out what's going on.

Stay safe, don't let Dan get too wild, and you boys don't do anything I wouldn't do.

Lee

Re: Need bail money?

[simply_linds]

Hey lee no we didn't need bail money. Hmm, I'm intrigued by all that's going on around here. Karl's solidly asleep (his inner clock is seriously screwed up) finally so I'll just have to wait until you guys post again to find out what's going on.

I'll let, erm, Ben tell that. I called in sick today, will hang around the house today, hang out here.

Linds, going back to sleep for a little while

[the_nut_house]

And I'm so glad you did.

Lee