The last night of the show.
So, when I first became Stage Manager for the show I was very awkward. I didn't really know anyone, I hardly knew what I was doing, and there was very little involvement of me in the beginning. I didn't go to all the rehearsals because having me memorize the show was unnecessary (even though I did memorize it in the three weeks I was there), and I was the odd man out. Everyone else there knew someone and was a good friend with at least one other person on the cast, so everyone was included and it was great for them.
And I was uncomfortable, I'll admit, I didn't know anyone and I am horrible at making friends. So I sat there, watched the rehearsals, spoke probably four full sentences total until tech week.
Then I started talking to people. I toned down my normal geek-filled conversation to more fit the crowd and people liked me. They talked to me, they invited me to things, then enjoyed having me around. It just took me a really, really long time to reach this level.
And during the performances, moving the heavy set pieces back and forth, I feel like I really started friendships with most of them, like I was finally part of their already well-established group.
After the show tonight, almost everyone went to Friday's to celebrate. And it was nice, being in a group of people, talking and having fun, conversing with everyone and being received well (so I thought) especially out of my element. (These people are like wild martin men to me, I said "Stupid anti-pimping laws" at dinner and no one got it, [i]no one,[/i] it was glorious) Tomorrow night there is another little party at Kelly's apartment and I'm invited. It's nice to be included and I really feel like part of the group, so I hope it lasts.
And I was uncomfortable, I'll admit, I didn't know anyone and I am horrible at making friends. So I sat there, watched the rehearsals, spoke probably four full sentences total until tech week.
Then I started talking to people. I toned down my normal geek-filled conversation to more fit the crowd and people liked me. They talked to me, they invited me to things, then enjoyed having me around. It just took me a really, really long time to reach this level.
And during the performances, moving the heavy set pieces back and forth, I feel like I really started friendships with most of them, like I was finally part of their already well-established group.
After the show tonight, almost everyone went to Friday's to celebrate. And it was nice, being in a group of people, talking and having fun, conversing with everyone and being received well (so I thought) especially out of my element. (These people are like wild martin men to me, I said "Stupid anti-pimping laws" at dinner and no one got it, [i]no one,[/i] it was glorious) Tomorrow night there is another little party at Kelly's apartment and I'm invited. It's nice to be included and I really feel like part of the group, so I hope it lasts.