it's elimination time bitches

[benight_the_sky]

I need a change....i've had the same haircut since....i don't know but a really long damn time. I've been changing a lot of things lately that needed to be changed. I eat reallllly healthy now....even giving up KOOL AID! No more processed food, fast food, carbonated drinks, candy, etc. I exercise. I study. I'm really focused on school. Now i need to start working on changing my undesirable attitudes and moods i get stuck in. I'm tired of giving up everything i start because "it's too hard" or "i just can't do it". I still get beyond frustrated when i can't do something....but i think it's because i get frustrated in the first place as to why i can't do things. It's very hard to teach yourself to be patient. Especially when you're working on your car in 100 degree weather and you just can't figure out why this one god damn bolt won't come out when you've already tried everything. But i'm getting better. I don't want to be like that anymore so i'm going to get rid of all these faulty traits that i have and become a better person. Mostly i'm doing this for myself, but also a little for Brandon. I know he's probably getting tired of me calling him up and bitching about how i can't work on my car because i'm too frustrated to see what the problem is in the first place. He's so incredibly patient with me too....i really admire that.

I really miss hanging out with my friends....i wish i had more time for them. I wish i had more time for a lot of things come to think of it. I need more friends that aren't trying so hard to grow up.

I also need a Guinness.

And a Brandon.... <3