sad reality
grandmother won't stop calling mom and kathy everytime she is freaked out. she claimed tonight that she couldn't feel anything in her legs until mom said that they will make her go to the hospital if she really can't, and then she just said she couldn't move, didn't want to move. she wanted my mom to come then because she was scared and not confidant the staff was going to help her. it sounded like my mom was talking to a little child, instead of a 91 year old woman, trying to explainn to her that she couldn't come.
it's wretched when you watch people slowly die. when dad had to put eye drops in grandmas' eyes, it made me feel queasy to my stomach. it made dad really cranky. just the role reversal in that few minutes was apparent....wasn't fun to deal with.
now this. i've have heard mom and kathy talk about her decay, about her nuttiness, and i've seen her a bit....but this was one of those "hit home" moments. she's really really losing everything, all confidance and will to do anything on her own. on friday she'll move into extended care....i don't know how long she'll live there before perishing. i wonder if she'll give up totally. how long will it be until i lose one of my grandmothers..the only grandparents i know.
*sigh* what a long week for everyone involved.
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it's wretched when you watch people slowly die. when dad had to put eye drops in grandmas' eyes, it made me feel queasy to my stomach. it made dad really cranky. just the role reversal in that few minutes was apparent....wasn't fun to deal with.
now this. i've have heard mom and kathy talk about her decay, about her nuttiness, and i've seen her a bit....but this was one of those "hit home" moments. she's really really losing everything, all confidance and will to do anything on her own. on friday she'll move into extended care....i don't know how long she'll live there before perishing. i wonder if she'll give up totally. how long will it be until i lose one of my grandmothers..the only grandparents i know.
*sigh* what a long week for everyone involved.
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