(no subject)
the past week was really stressful, and i had a really really miserable time on tuesday, one of those days i was uber depressed and couldn't stop crying most of the afternoon and evening.
although the kids and life got a bit better, i'm still really tired out, and feeling burned out (already). ovewhelemed with little motivation to grade index cards or whatever else i have to grade.
the rest of the week was interesting though. i got to see my new school, southeast. it is really nice. it has nice huge hallways and it's looking great -0 everything so wonderfully designed and new. great looking library and gym and cafeteria and new teacher's lounge and we're going to have new desks and smart boards. i feel excited for the change - and ready for it. i'm ready for this year to be over. i know that i can start afreash, correct my mistakes, and be a better teacher all next year. i can survive and weather the battles with a bit more knowledge of the kids and excuses and crap that they throw me and the shit. i will be able to know that they are just mean for being mean and i can't take it personally. i will have know that every kid says to every teacher that i have nothing better to do than write up students. and even your mentor teacher who has been teaching for 20 something years will have kids disrespect and have troubles. i'lll know that everything to them is boring, nothing is fun, and they'll never be glad to be at school. you just have to do what you can with what you have. you have to try to engage them and make "ti fun", be creative, appeal to multiple intelligences, mix it up, and then leave it at that. if they still don't think it's fun, or they still don't stop complaining, then hell. SCREW THEM. nothing will work. stop caring so much about WHAT THEY THINK. DEALl. if they are learning, you are doing your job.
i wish i had a stronger backbone and was more consistant. i wish had mixed up my activiites more. i wish hadn't spent so goddaman so much time on the stupid american revolutionary war. i hope to do my colonial simulation with the whole 8th grade. i wish that i could get the kids to shut up and be quiet and listen. i wish i could get them trained on their noteboooks better.
i wish the sky was green.
oh welll it's no use wishing now. do what i can to change what i can and write as much down for next year's lessons. i felt strong today.
i have an impossible week and a very long weekend ahead of me - not to mention terrible timing with mid-quarters - so i must go and disappear to grade up the wazoooo.
although the kids and life got a bit better, i'm still really tired out, and feeling burned out (already). ovewhelemed with little motivation to grade index cards or whatever else i have to grade.
the rest of the week was interesting though. i got to see my new school, southeast. it is really nice. it has nice huge hallways and it's looking great -0 everything so wonderfully designed and new. great looking library and gym and cafeteria and new teacher's lounge and we're going to have new desks and smart boards. i feel excited for the change - and ready for it. i'm ready for this year to be over. i know that i can start afreash, correct my mistakes, and be a better teacher all next year. i can survive and weather the battles with a bit more knowledge of the kids and excuses and crap that they throw me and the shit. i will be able to know that they are just mean for being mean and i can't take it personally. i will have know that every kid says to every teacher that i have nothing better to do than write up students. and even your mentor teacher who has been teaching for 20 something years will have kids disrespect and have troubles. i'lll know that everything to them is boring, nothing is fun, and they'll never be glad to be at school. you just have to do what you can with what you have. you have to try to engage them and make "ti fun", be creative, appeal to multiple intelligences, mix it up, and then leave it at that. if they still don't think it's fun, or they still don't stop complaining, then hell. SCREW THEM. nothing will work. stop caring so much about WHAT THEY THINK. DEALl. if they are learning, you are doing your job.
i wish i had a stronger backbone and was more consistant. i wish had mixed up my activiites more. i wish hadn't spent so goddaman so much time on the stupid american revolutionary war. i hope to do my colonial simulation with the whole 8th grade. i wish that i could get the kids to shut up and be quiet and listen. i wish i could get them trained on their noteboooks better.
i wish the sky was green.
oh welll it's no use wishing now. do what i can to change what i can and write as much down for next year's lessons. i felt strong today.
i have an impossible week and a very long weekend ahead of me - not to mention terrible timing with mid-quarters - so i must go and disappear to grade up the wazoooo.