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the routine is the same every day. 5 am wake up, dressed, check messages, and downstairs. make coffee, make breakfast, make lunch.sip coffee. put the dishes in the dishwasher, go uptsairs to brush teeth. downstairs to slip out the door. it's pitch black in the house, dead quiet. mom sleeping, dad working or sleeping. it's usually dark when i slip into my car, my black bag in the back seat. water bottle in the cup holder. turn lights on, keys in, and off to slip quietly down the silent streets. onto the highway, off the highway, and pulling into HMS. open the door, put bag down, lock valuables in cabinet, wake up computer, do my thing. run around like mad doing whatever i need to do before school starts.
today was no exception to that rule....6:15 arrival isn't too out of the norm. it was light out when i pulled into HMS, that was new. i didn't leave until 5:36 so it was pitch black when i left. not so cool.
however, the kids were little hellions - "hell on wheels" as my english teacher said. oh god they were wretched.
after a day as miserable as today, it's tempting to just want to quit. they say this is the worst week of the year until xmas. well that's just fantastic...a full week of misery. i have stacks of grading and things to be doing since i want to take off the weekend...but i can't bring myself to start work yet. i can't believe i have to go back tomorrow. part of me just feels burned out already and just dragging. i know i can't really quit - there's not enough reason to really quit. but it's certainly really hard.....and i'm not sure when the next break is. when it's going too go well. i just want one day....one day to go well. is that too much to ask?
and now, after wasting 2 hours already b/t traveling and dinner and Night and this, i must force myself to return to work.
*sigh*
today was no exception to that rule....6:15 arrival isn't too out of the norm. it was light out when i pulled into HMS, that was new. i didn't leave until 5:36 so it was pitch black when i left. not so cool.
however, the kids were little hellions - "hell on wheels" as my english teacher said. oh god they were wretched.
after a day as miserable as today, it's tempting to just want to quit. they say this is the worst week of the year until xmas. well that's just fantastic...a full week of misery. i have stacks of grading and things to be doing since i want to take off the weekend...but i can't bring myself to start work yet. i can't believe i have to go back tomorrow. part of me just feels burned out already and just dragging. i know i can't really quit - there's not enough reason to really quit. but it's certainly really hard.....and i'm not sure when the next break is. when it's going too go well. i just want one day....one day to go well. is that too much to ask?
and now, after wasting 2 hours already b/t traveling and dinner and Night and this, i must force myself to return to work.
*sigh*