It's Personal.
For once, I've decided to write something direct. I've decided to write about me for this entry, instead of relating my thoughts and feelings to other things. I wanted to get a little more personal, and really let my feelings out.
As you may know, I love to model. I've been doing it for almost three years now, and I would love nothing more than to make a career of it. However, I sometimes doubt myself a little more than I should. I know it's not because I don't have confidence, or I have negative opinions of my work. I just feel that I don't have enough support; support that I need to keep going. Modeling is very hard to do, and the industry itself is very critical. I need the proper support and feedback to push me along. It has nothing to do with me being confident in myself, or my own opinion of my work. On the other hand, it has everything to do with the confidence and opinions other people give me. Even the people closest to me don't provide the proper support. I need feedback, both positive and negative. I need opinions on both good and bad. If you don't like something about my photographs, tell me. I'm not going to get mad, it's constructive criticism. I need to hear it. Otherwise, I will never make it.
I desperately need to know what people think of my work, I need to know that I am good enough, but most of all, I need to know who's with me on this. I can't possibly be doing this alone, it just won't happen.
Sometimes, I just need to be reassured.
For now,
<3XOXO
-Bengee