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yep I am up...when I should be getting my last few hours sleep before I go to work...but I have so much going on lately that my mind is on overdrive and doesnt have time to stop thinking long enough to actually sleep...Cristina is bringing Neme and Jade over tonight I think...not sure...I havent talked to her about it in a few days...but I think today is the day...and on Friday I get to wake up early and go take care of my moms horses...I dont mind all that...just adds to my duties...I have been sick for 3 weeks and I think it is getting worse again...Debs going away party is Saturday :(...we move in the next week or two...09032004...I have to find a new job...I am completely broke...I dont know how since apparently I havent actually been paying any bills...I owe Ryan big time bucks...I have ppl trying to get in touch with me that I would love to talk to but I dont have the time or energy...sounds so minor when I type it out here..but...when I'm living it and one thing after another comes up I am getting overwhelmed...it sucks...I need sleep to deal with these issues sanely but I cant sleep because these issues are driving me insane....
oh well I will live...I always do...its been a while since my last feeling sorry for myself post...thought it was time...
oh well I will live...I always do...its been a while since my last feeling sorry for myself post...thought it was time...