Being back
The first few days back I was great I felt good and relaxed and so new, you know, so appriciative, and everyone around me and their busyness and hustle bustle made me laugh, people with their "stuff to do" I had this overwhelming sense of self, and sanity, and peace, but then, I came down, to reality, and I had stuff to do, and today I started feeling that rushed feeling I havent felt in a couple months.
For the first time in my life, in Thailand I wasnt rushing, I wasnt busy, I didnt care if I walked slow, or ate slow, or looked at things, or prayed in my head for hours, and now Im so overwhelmed with real life and how I just dont want to be drawn back into filling my time and space up with STUFF.
Thats all it is...... thing to do, stuff, ugh. Im so frustrated. Life isnt about stuff is it? Its ridiculous, our culture is so diseased with stuff. And for some stupid reason Im letting it get to me.
I think Im just tired, jet legged, culture shocked. Everyone told me Id be more culture chocked comming back, I guess I just didnt think it would be like this. I always thought we should be so grateful in Canada for all the things we have, but I really wonder, what do we have? I feel like we have everything but the essentials. Its all just stuff. Filler, distraction, selfish and godless.
And maybe I just need to sleep.
For the first time in my life, in Thailand I wasnt rushing, I wasnt busy, I didnt care if I walked slow, or ate slow, or looked at things, or prayed in my head for hours, and now Im so overwhelmed with real life and how I just dont want to be drawn back into filling my time and space up with STUFF.
Thats all it is...... thing to do, stuff, ugh. Im so frustrated. Life isnt about stuff is it? Its ridiculous, our culture is so diseased with stuff. And for some stupid reason Im letting it get to me.
I think Im just tired, jet legged, culture shocked. Everyone told me Id be more culture chocked comming back, I guess I just didnt think it would be like this. I always thought we should be so grateful in Canada for all the things we have, but I really wonder, what do we have? I feel like we have everything but the essentials. Its all just stuff. Filler, distraction, selfish and godless.
And maybe I just need to sleep.