"letters and photos"

[beneaththesea]

in a brown suitcase
locked
hiding under darkness in the closet of
my new room
under the bed
in my old room

you lie

forever sixteen
beautiful and alive
inside it's fake brown shell
it is valentines day, it is christmas, it is your birthday
it is january 18th and cold
inside a fake leather box
your sweet cool breath
is on my face
your lips
on my stomach
behind it's belts and zippers
you are sealed in ice
sealed inside my body
with all my poverty
with all my lies
with all my hatred
with all my knowledge
with all my suicide
with all my blood running

out of my heart

spilling into the streets
there you are

kissing me on the lips
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"i'll give you a big fat kiss, if you promise not to tell."