Update again
I am going to start keeping up with this.A Few things have happened since april.
This June until august, I Was employed at a life changing camp called Springhill, the Camp Was my job and my life for those two monthes, I Had a chance to spend aLOT of time with God, And he taught me lessions I wasn't sure mattered to me.
He taught me how to be a Friend to anyone, Someone I was before wasn't a true friend.
What a GREAT experience.
Today is my birthday! It's AMAZING To be Nineteen.
I Got my licence and a Car a few monthes back. I am getting a NEW car. A 2008 Pontiac G6.
We all know this is going to come up.
Jordan.
Jordan and I weren't friends for about two monthes pretty much the entire time I was At springhill so about three monthesish. I didn't give him a chance to come back into my life. We fought ALOT! and It was tough to be around Jordan, I couldn't stand the stress and disrespect, and I WAsn't Leaving to Springhill with that type of friendship.
I came home and he told me he was to good for me and things like that. so I didn't bother tring to fix anything. I really wanted to. But it wasn't worth Getting upset over. Because this girl I have become is a girl with happiness.
when I left For those two monthes I Expected nothing more of Jordan's Friendship and Mine. I thought it was over. and It pretty much was.
Last night someone texted me and told me happy birthday and told me it was him who sent the message. I thought it was Genrous.and than he said he didn't send that because He didn't know me anymore or whatnot. Jordan and I Fought for maybe about 15 minutes. And than I told him how amazing my life has been, Despite how much i missed him around in my life. No matter what I wasn't letting him know. Until he had said " I hate this" And I was like hate what. And he was all " I was in love with you, Since about Graduation." I Didn't know how to react. I was speechless. For the First time in four years That boy Made me speechless. I Am So In love with Jordan, I didn't want to admit that to him, Because I didn't think he felt that way, Last night he had also told me something else, He told me he was Scared of falling for me, Because he didn't want to feel that hurt!" and He told me that I thought he was gay anyway, and that I wouldn't date him. Jordan doesn't realize what I would have done for him.
I NOW have boys falling to my feet AND GUESS WHAT, I'd drop all of that to have a relationship with him again. No more of this BFFL Crap. We don't have that. We never did. We were more of the " Unoffical" couple!
I hope that things work out between us.
I started college, and I love it. the work load is alot to take on, It's a struggle, but I want to become somebody so in order to do that I need my degree! =]]
ALSO, I work a full time job to!
This June until august, I Was employed at a life changing camp called Springhill, the Camp Was my job and my life for those two monthes, I Had a chance to spend aLOT of time with God, And he taught me lessions I wasn't sure mattered to me.
He taught me how to be a Friend to anyone, Someone I was before wasn't a true friend.
What a GREAT experience.
Today is my birthday! It's AMAZING To be Nineteen.
I Got my licence and a Car a few monthes back. I am getting a NEW car. A 2008 Pontiac G6.
We all know this is going to come up.
Jordan.
Jordan and I weren't friends for about two monthes pretty much the entire time I was At springhill so about three monthesish. I didn't give him a chance to come back into my life. We fought ALOT! and It was tough to be around Jordan, I couldn't stand the stress and disrespect, and I WAsn't Leaving to Springhill with that type of friendship.
I came home and he told me he was to good for me and things like that. so I didn't bother tring to fix anything. I really wanted to. But it wasn't worth Getting upset over. Because this girl I have become is a girl with happiness.
when I left For those two monthes I Expected nothing more of Jordan's Friendship and Mine. I thought it was over. and It pretty much was.
Last night someone texted me and told me happy birthday and told me it was him who sent the message. I thought it was Genrous.and than he said he didn't send that because He didn't know me anymore or whatnot. Jordan and I Fought for maybe about 15 minutes. And than I told him how amazing my life has been, Despite how much i missed him around in my life. No matter what I wasn't letting him know. Until he had said " I hate this" And I was like hate what. And he was all " I was in love with you, Since about Graduation." I Didn't know how to react. I was speechless. For the First time in four years That boy Made me speechless. I Am So In love with Jordan, I didn't want to admit that to him, Because I didn't think he felt that way, Last night he had also told me something else, He told me he was Scared of falling for me, Because he didn't want to feel that hurt!" and He told me that I thought he was gay anyway, and that I wouldn't date him. Jordan doesn't realize what I would have done for him.
I NOW have boys falling to my feet AND GUESS WHAT, I'd drop all of that to have a relationship with him again. No more of this BFFL Crap. We don't have that. We never did. We were more of the " Unoffical" couple!
I hope that things work out between us.
I started college, and I love it. the work load is alot to take on, It's a struggle, but I want to become somebody so in order to do that I need my degree! =]]
ALSO, I work a full time job to!