Looking back, I'm not where I was a year ago.
September 20th, 2004
'Today Im 18. Did i get everything i wanted? Not quite....'
Did I ever get what I wanted? No, but looking back I'm glad I didnt. What I wanted would have been a mistake, wasn't worth it when it came down to it. I have learned so much from then, I'm glad I've landed where I am today.
September 20th, 2005
Turned 19 this year...and got everything I wanted.
Birthday's get more and more weird. Last one was awsome with the people I spent it with. This one was awsome cause of the people I spent it with. Those friends are so precious to me, even if they don't know it, which i hope they do. Spent the day at class, napped, then had a long great night over at Ed, Eli, and Jeff's house, I mean after all it was a Taco Tuesday. All the regulars were there, they all signed this really cute card for me, and got me drunk haha. Ed cheered up which was nice, its always sad to see him down, Shannon and Danielle were their hilarious selves, Eli was Eli haha, Josh got a little hug friendly, Jeff did his usual hitting on (dirty old man haha), and the nite was just great.
It's crazy to think that i've made it this far. So many things you go through in your life, I'm glad that I've been able to handle them. It's amazing how many things can change in one year, i guess not change but just happen, people dieing, moving away, friends, relationships, etc. its just all crazy.
It was nice right before school started for all the friends to get back together, that one last goodbye is exactly what i think that everyone needed to remember the good times. That nite at Justins house we all went into the hot tub was just so much fun, and no one cared about any shit we were just all enjoying each others company, cause we knew that most of us would be leaving within the next couple of days. (Speaking of, I miss Justin so much.) Then hanging out with Brian the nite before he left was a good time too, I think that our friendship was exactly back to where is was before it all got torn up waaay back sophmore year, and it was good to just be back there, such good times...I definitly got choked up saying goodbye...goodbyes are always so hard for me. Having to say goodbye to Irving was definitly hard...I'm not gonna lie I cried a whole lot. And there was goodbye to Michael the next day, usual trip to beaners, then walk around town, running into everyone we know like usual..that was a great nite too. That weekend in general was really tough, and the goodbyes were many...i just always feeling like somethings being lost when someone moves away, its a test to see if the friendship is strong enough to last the distance or if you will lose contact with the person. It's weird how birthdays always make you think of yur friends, all the little things they've done for you and shit. Weekends coming up are going to get crazy with all the friends to visit. Chicago, Saginaw, Grand Rapids, Michigan, Eastern, Central, Ohio? I have a feeling I'm gonna be doing a lot of driving, I am glad though that they aren't all staying away, and are coming back for visits.
I was really happy when Michael decided to come back just one nite to see me for my birthday, and he even got me a present, something actually that I have been wanting. I love him so much and miss him a ton! He'a an escape away from all the others, I dont know what i would do without my Michael. Marie even rememberd my bday which was awsome, i was happy to hear her voice when she called me, things have been so crazy that i just havnt been able to find time to call her etc, and i know that shes super busy also. Micah called me today, he sounds pretty good. He should know that he's much missed also. He never fails on making me smile, even if its over the fone. Its so sad that he has to be so far away, i mean shit hes further away then chicago, and still in michigan, who the fuck wants to go that far north. But at least he is coming down for a weekend soon, and im definitly making sure to see him.
Super pissed that the Vages trip in October has been cancled for me. What the fuck is a year without Jimmy Buffett, I'm so going to be crying that whole weekend. The fury inside of me is unbelievable when I think that I am not able to go. Grrr you dont even know. I'm possibly still going to North Carolina though in October for my cousins wedding, unless my teachers decide to have tests or something on that day Im leaving. Mena's coming home for a weekend. A trip to Cananda with my sister and friends is in the making...it seems October is going to be a busy month.
As of right now life is awsome and school is going good. Keeping in touch with friends is going good. The only thing that's not is finding a job which i need horribly for money for Europe next summer with the brother. Stressin a little bout that but eveyrthing else is going smoothly. Still looking into schools to transfer too, so I'm hoping i can figure one out soon. Anyway much love and thanks for all the friends that made my birthday great.
'Today Im 18. Did i get everything i wanted? Not quite....'
Did I ever get what I wanted? No, but looking back I'm glad I didnt. What I wanted would have been a mistake, wasn't worth it when it came down to it. I have learned so much from then, I'm glad I've landed where I am today.
September 20th, 2005
Turned 19 this year...and got everything I wanted.
Birthday's get more and more weird. Last one was awsome with the people I spent it with. This one was awsome cause of the people I spent it with. Those friends are so precious to me, even if they don't know it, which i hope they do. Spent the day at class, napped, then had a long great night over at Ed, Eli, and Jeff's house, I mean after all it was a Taco Tuesday. All the regulars were there, they all signed this really cute card for me, and got me drunk haha. Ed cheered up which was nice, its always sad to see him down, Shannon and Danielle were their hilarious selves, Eli was Eli haha, Josh got a little hug friendly, Jeff did his usual hitting on (dirty old man haha), and the nite was just great.
It's crazy to think that i've made it this far. So many things you go through in your life, I'm glad that I've been able to handle them. It's amazing how many things can change in one year, i guess not change but just happen, people dieing, moving away, friends, relationships, etc. its just all crazy.
It was nice right before school started for all the friends to get back together, that one last goodbye is exactly what i think that everyone needed to remember the good times. That nite at Justins house we all went into the hot tub was just so much fun, and no one cared about any shit we were just all enjoying each others company, cause we knew that most of us would be leaving within the next couple of days. (Speaking of, I miss Justin so much.) Then hanging out with Brian the nite before he left was a good time too, I think that our friendship was exactly back to where is was before it all got torn up waaay back sophmore year, and it was good to just be back there, such good times...I definitly got choked up saying goodbye...goodbyes are always so hard for me. Having to say goodbye to Irving was definitly hard...I'm not gonna lie I cried a whole lot. And there was goodbye to Michael the next day, usual trip to beaners, then walk around town, running into everyone we know like usual..that was a great nite too. That weekend in general was really tough, and the goodbyes were many...i just always feeling like somethings being lost when someone moves away, its a test to see if the friendship is strong enough to last the distance or if you will lose contact with the person. It's weird how birthdays always make you think of yur friends, all the little things they've done for you and shit. Weekends coming up are going to get crazy with all the friends to visit. Chicago, Saginaw, Grand Rapids, Michigan, Eastern, Central, Ohio? I have a feeling I'm gonna be doing a lot of driving, I am glad though that they aren't all staying away, and are coming back for visits.
I was really happy when Michael decided to come back just one nite to see me for my birthday, and he even got me a present, something actually that I have been wanting. I love him so much and miss him a ton! He'a an escape away from all the others, I dont know what i would do without my Michael. Marie even rememberd my bday which was awsome, i was happy to hear her voice when she called me, things have been so crazy that i just havnt been able to find time to call her etc, and i know that shes super busy also. Micah called me today, he sounds pretty good. He should know that he's much missed also. He never fails on making me smile, even if its over the fone. Its so sad that he has to be so far away, i mean shit hes further away then chicago, and still in michigan, who the fuck wants to go that far north. But at least he is coming down for a weekend soon, and im definitly making sure to see him.
Super pissed that the Vages trip in October has been cancled for me. What the fuck is a year without Jimmy Buffett, I'm so going to be crying that whole weekend. The fury inside of me is unbelievable when I think that I am not able to go. Grrr you dont even know. I'm possibly still going to North Carolina though in October for my cousins wedding, unless my teachers decide to have tests or something on that day Im leaving. Mena's coming home for a weekend. A trip to Cananda with my sister and friends is in the making...it seems October is going to be a busy month.
As of right now life is awsome and school is going good. Keeping in touch with friends is going good. The only thing that's not is finding a job which i need horribly for money for Europe next summer with the brother. Stressin a little bout that but eveyrthing else is going smoothly. Still looking into schools to transfer too, so I'm hoping i can figure one out soon. Anyway much love and thanks for all the friends that made my birthday great.