The obstacles we build for ourselves*
I wrote a personal post on Tumblr: in which I try to figure shit out (with gifs and incoherence)
I wrote fic:
Time 'Verse: Prompt: Chip/Crowley
Heroes: Prompt: Peter and Nathan, forced to share a bed, being siblings about it.
Teen Wolf Kate Argent/Derek Hale series: 1) Love is Just a Bloodsport, 2) A Banquet of Consequences, 3) The Smell of Something Burning, 4) Between Epiphany and Epitaph, 5) Make Ships with Volatile Souls
I made fanmixes:
General - Friendship - (It's Been Three Years) Let's Make It a Lifetime
Teen Wolf - Kate Argent, Derek Hale - I'm the Girl Who Set Your Boy On Fire
Teen Wolf - Stiles Stilinski, Demon - Love a Good Suit
Question Meme, via marika_kailaya:
1. First thing you wash in the shower? - Left arm.
2. Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker? - Tea.
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? - Honestly can't remember who that was. Might have been my mom? Eh, sure.
4. Do you plan outfits? - Very, very rarely, and I haven't for ages because I don't go out anywhere. But sometimes I think, "I haven't worn this awesome thing in ages, let's do that tomorrow come hell or high water."
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? - Apathetic.
6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red? - A pillow I appropriated from the couch a year ago and use for everything. Currently it's an elbow-rest.
7. What would you do if you opened your door and saw a dead body? - Shut the door, lock it, and call the police.
8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having? - I was in my residence in Barcelona, there were other people sharing the apartment, and it wasn't going well.
9. Three of your current feelings? - Apathy, I-don't-care-ness, and meh.
10. What are you craving right now? - Food and a more comfortable desk chair.
11. Do you floss? - Two to three times a day. I wear retainers at night, yo, I have to floss.
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? - An image of a cabbage. All chopped up.
13. When was the last time you talked on AIM? - Never.
14. When was the last time you cried? Why? - Day Two of Manchester. I'd talked to some folks at the hostel the day before who told me that basically there were no jobs in the city and everything was terrible, and that morning I'd gone to a rental agency and found out that, yeah, residences are ridiculously expensive (and that's not even counting council tax or whatnot) and really far away. So I was feeling really really down and I wibbled and cried for the whole day. [ETA: Considering I filled out this meme over a week or two ago I should say that oh hai I cried today because I have become the definition of apathy and also PMS depression is evil and I suck and etc.]
15. If you could be a superhero, who would you want to be? - Going to go with Deadpool, about whom I know nothing about aside from the mass amounts of sass.
16. Did the one person who hurt you most in your life apologize? - They never do. Ever.
17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? - Lick.
18. Favorite movie ever? - I don't do favourites, but Monty Python and the Holy Grail and Shaun of the Dead come to mind.
19. Do you like yourself? - Sometimes.
20. Have you ever met a celebrity? - Jane Goodall
21. Could you handle being in the military? - No. Maybe. Emotionally, I'd be a wreck. Physically, I wouldn't be able to cut it. But damn if I could obey orders like a pro.
22. What are you listening to right now? - Possible songs for a Kate Argent (Teen Wolf) fanmix.
23. How many countries have you visited? - Visited? Oh gods... I'm including "lived in". Canada, USA, Mexico, Guatemala, Costa Rica, Colombia, Kenya, Egypt, Mauritius, Spain, Italy, Andorra, France, Germany, UK, The Netherlands, Belgium, Switzerland, Austria, Croatia, Serbia, Hungary, Greeze, Turkey, Israel... I might be missing some, especially from when I was way younger.
24. Are your parents strict? - They never really had to be because I'm such a cave-in.
25. Would you go sky diving? - No Yes. But only after hang-gliding.
26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush? - No. Unless someone sold it to me as "you can go eat this delicious food, but this guy has to be present". In which case, shut up, sit down, and let me nom.
27. Whats on your mind right now? - How much I don't care about this meme. Also the lack of apostrophe in the question, as marika_kailaya pointed out.
28. Is there anything you want to say to someone? - A lot. To many people. Some I'll never get the chance to and some will never listen.
29. Have you ever been in a castle? - Many.
30. Do you rent movies often? - Not in this day and age, yo.
31. Whats your zodiac sign? - The only inanimate object, whoot.
32. When was the last time you had sex? - June 1, 2009
33. Name five facts about yourself.
- I don't know how to drive.
- I'm multilingual.
- I'm near-sighted.
- I'm bi-national.
- I don't know if I'm ambidextrous or just use my non-dominant hand rerally well.
34. Ever had a near death experience? If so, what happened? - Not at all near-dear, technically, but once I was swimming in the ocean and jumping waves with friends from high school (it was our graduation trip) and got tired and couldn't get out of the ocean and thought I was going to drown.
35. Do you believe in karma or predestiny? - Not seriously.
36. Brown or white eggs? - To quote marika_kailaya, "they're the SAME."
37. Do you own something from Hot Topic? - I don't know what that is, so no.
38. Ever been on a train? - Yes. Slept in them too, with a bed and everything.
39. Ever been in love? - Yes.
40. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you do it? - Fuck yes.
41. If you could trade places with any person living or dead, who would you trade places with? - I don't care enough to answer this shit. And also, what do you mean "trade places"? Trade consciousness? Trade life roles? Would I still be me? But in a different body or time or whatever? Or actually me, but in their life role? Either way, it would not end well.
42. If you could shorten your life expectancy by 10 years to becopme more attractive, would you do it? - No.
43. Whom do you admire and why? - People who do good things to people and are nice and accomplish good shit while still being awesome. Those people.
44. What was your favorite bedtime story as a child? - I never got bedtime stories. The best my mother ever did was, "There was once a girl who wanted a bedtime story so her mother told her a story about a girl who wanted a bedtime story." I was not amused.
45. You’re walking down the street, you come across a burning building. A woman says her baby is trapped inside, what would you do? - Call the firemen and keep the woman out of the building.
46. If you could choose the future profession of your son or daughter, would you? - WHAT ARE YOU DOING EXISTING? I NEVER WANTED CHILDREN. But fine...time traveller. Take your Ma to the Jurassic period for her sixtieth, would you?
47. What was your best experience on drugs or alcohol? - That one time painkillers actually fucking WORKED and I was no longer in agonizing pain. That was nice.
48. What was your worst experience on drugs or alcohol? - All those other times painkillers DID NOT FUCKING WORK so I spent four hours or so whimpering on the floor in agonizing pain. Not nice.
50. As your walking down the street you find a suitcase full of money sitting next to a parked car, would you take it? - No. That could never end well.
51. If you found that a close friend has AIDS, would you still hang out with them? - You are a horrible human being for even thinking this is a question. OF FUCKING COURSE I WOULD.
52. In front of you are 10 pistols, 5 of which are loaded. If you survive you’d receive 100 million dollars. Would you be willing to place 1 to your head and pull the trigger? - No.
53. How old were you when you lost your virginity? - 25
54. Do you believe in ghosts, werewolves or vampires? - Not seriously.
55. If you could live forever, would you want to? - If I got to have other perks, maybe. (Like, if I wouldn't have to live on the streets forever, or work forever, or be put in a lab as a freak or something.) But if you're asking if I'd want this, just...forever? FUCK NO make it stop.
56. Which fictional movie character most resembles who you are? - Fucked if I know.
57. If you could go back in time, which time period would you visit? - DINOSAURS
58. If they were to televise a live execution, would you watch it? - No.
59. If you could be the president of the USA, would you be willing to do it? - No.
60. If you could choose the sex of your unborn child, would you want to? - NO CHILDREN! HOW MANY TIMES TO I HAVE TO SAY THIS?
61. Would you rather live longer or be wealthy? - GIVE ME WEALTH. Then maybe I might actually enjoy life a bit more.
Thirty Questions About Myself
8. Your oldest hobby - Keeping a diary, I suppose. I've been doing it, on and off, since I was about thirteen, which is longer than I've been writing fiction. (Or at least writing fiction somewhat seriously.)
9. Your sexuality - Heterosexual leaning towards bisexual, I think. I'm not sure. I mean, I get all lustful over men, but then I've had girl crushes in school and get all lustful over women too (although I'm still not clear on whether it's because I want to be them or be with them). Basically, though, everyone's fair game.
10. What you look for in a partner - Kindness, consideration, humour...and if they don't understand why fandom is important to me, then we're going to have a serious problem.
11. Your kids, or your feelings about having kids - *no no no cat noises* No kids. Ever. Especially not the way my life's going, but seriously, do not want.
12. Your pets, past and present - A black Labrador (Emma), for a few years until I was four or five, then we had to leave her because we were leaving the country. Then a couple hamsters (Claudio and Tiffany), then some goldfish (who probably had names but kept dying). And I took care of our class gerbil and guinea pigs a few times. Haven't had a pet since I was in my early teens. I'd love to have a cat, though, or rodents again.
13. Foods you love and foods you hate
14. What your life was like ten years ago
15. How much alcohol you drink
16. Your worst illness
17. What you do at work
18. A question or comment people should never make to you
19. The style of clothing you feel most comfortable in
20. Whether you’re an extrovert or an introvert
21. Who you have a crush on
22. A friendship you lost
23. Three achievements you’re proud of
24. Your political views
25. Your religious beliefs
26. Your perfect night out
27. Whether you like to plan ahead or be spontaneous
28. What you look for in a friend
29. Whether you’re a night owl or a morning lark
30. How you would like people to remember you
Links of the Day:
Supernatural:
Rumrouz's Teen Wolf Crossover Fanvid Winchester are in Beacon Hills
XdwLissaX's Buffy Crossover Fanvid The Lightning Strike for hezio2's Fanfic
Doctor Who:
lonewytch's Meta Conflict and Mirroring: Dinosaurs on a Spaceship
Other Fandom:
obsessive24's Game of Thrones Fanvid Remember the Name
Mythopoeic Society's Nice, good, or right: faces of the wise woman in Terry Pratchett's "witches" novels.
Anamardoll's Deconstructing Narnia (including Nikabrikian Heresies)
Wikipedia's The Voyage of the Dawn Treader: Differences between British and American editions
Random:
ursulav's In Which I Win A Hugo And Fight Neil Gaiman For Free Nachos ; Audio (and Blurry Video!) of my speech ; House with Bird Feet - Excerpt
chaosvizier's flocked Turkish Travelogue: Finale!
theweaselking's Wherein I endorse a TV product [The Booth at the End] ; Side-channel attacks on EEG headsets: Reading the mind of the user to pull out banking information.
Neil Gaiman's A Letter from a Scared Actress
Hugo Awards 2012
In 1960, U.S. Air Force pilot Joseph Kittinger flew thirty kilometers straight up into the sky using a pressurized, high-altitude balloon. This very nearly made him the first man in space. Then he jumped.
* Hello Saferide, "Arjeplog"
I wrote fic:
Time 'Verse: Prompt: Chip/Crowley
Heroes: Prompt: Peter and Nathan, forced to share a bed, being siblings about it.
Teen Wolf Kate Argent/Derek Hale series: 1) Love is Just a Bloodsport, 2) A Banquet of Consequences, 3) The Smell of Something Burning, 4) Between Epiphany and Epitaph, 5) Make Ships with Volatile Souls
I made fanmixes:
General - Friendship - (It's Been Three Years) Let's Make It a Lifetime
Teen Wolf - Kate Argent, Derek Hale - I'm the Girl Who Set Your Boy On Fire
Teen Wolf - Stiles Stilinski, Demon - Love a Good Suit
Question Meme, via marika_kailaya:
1. First thing you wash in the shower? - Left arm.
2. Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker? - Tea.
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? - Honestly can't remember who that was. Might have been my mom? Eh, sure.
4. Do you plan outfits? - Very, very rarely, and I haven't for ages because I don't go out anywhere. But sometimes I think, "I haven't worn this awesome thing in ages, let's do that tomorrow come hell or high water."
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? - Apathetic.
6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red? - A pillow I appropriated from the couch a year ago and use for everything. Currently it's an elbow-rest.
7. What would you do if you opened your door and saw a dead body? - Shut the door, lock it, and call the police.
8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having? - I was in my residence in Barcelona, there were other people sharing the apartment, and it wasn't going well.
9. Three of your current feelings? - Apathy, I-don't-care-ness, and meh.
10. What are you craving right now? - Food and a more comfortable desk chair.
11. Do you floss? - Two to three times a day. I wear retainers at night, yo, I have to floss.
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? - An image of a cabbage. All chopped up.
13. When was the last time you talked on AIM? - Never.
14. When was the last time you cried? Why? - Day Two of Manchester. I'd talked to some folks at the hostel the day before who told me that basically there were no jobs in the city and everything was terrible, and that morning I'd gone to a rental agency and found out that, yeah, residences are ridiculously expensive (and that's not even counting council tax or whatnot) and really far away. So I was feeling really really down and I wibbled and cried for the whole day. [ETA: Considering I filled out this meme over a week or two ago I should say that oh hai I cried today because I have become the definition of apathy and also PMS depression is evil and I suck and etc.]
15. If you could be a superhero, who would you want to be? - Going to go with Deadpool, about whom I know nothing about aside from the mass amounts of sass.
16. Did the one person who hurt you most in your life apologize? - They never do. Ever.
17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? - Lick.
18. Favorite movie ever? - I don't do favourites, but Monty Python and the Holy Grail and Shaun of the Dead come to mind.
19. Do you like yourself? - Sometimes.
20. Have you ever met a celebrity? - Jane Goodall
21. Could you handle being in the military? - No. Maybe. Emotionally, I'd be a wreck. Physically, I wouldn't be able to cut it. But damn if I could obey orders like a pro.
22. What are you listening to right now? - Possible songs for a Kate Argent (Teen Wolf) fanmix.
23. How many countries have you visited? - Visited? Oh gods... I'm including "lived in". Canada, USA, Mexico, Guatemala, Costa Rica, Colombia, Kenya, Egypt, Mauritius, Spain, Italy, Andorra, France, Germany, UK, The Netherlands, Belgium, Switzerland, Austria, Croatia, Serbia, Hungary, Greeze, Turkey, Israel... I might be missing some, especially from when I was way younger.
24. Are your parents strict? - They never really had to be because I'm such a cave-in.
25. Would you go sky diving? - No Yes. But only after hang-gliding.
26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush? - No. Unless someone sold it to me as "you can go eat this delicious food, but this guy has to be present". In which case, shut up, sit down, and let me nom.
27. Whats on your mind right now? - How much I don't care about this meme. Also the lack of apostrophe in the question, as marika_kailaya pointed out.
28. Is there anything you want to say to someone? - A lot. To many people. Some I'll never get the chance to and some will never listen.
29. Have you ever been in a castle? - Many.
30. Do you rent movies often? - Not in this day and age, yo.
31. Whats your zodiac sign? - The only inanimate object, whoot.
32. When was the last time you had sex? - June 1, 2009
33. Name five facts about yourself.
- I don't know how to drive.
- I'm multilingual.
- I'm near-sighted.
- I'm bi-national.
- I don't know if I'm ambidextrous or just use my non-dominant hand rerally well.
34. Ever had a near death experience? If so, what happened? - Not at all near-dear, technically, but once I was swimming in the ocean and jumping waves with friends from high school (it was our graduation trip) and got tired and couldn't get out of the ocean and thought I was going to drown.
35. Do you believe in karma or predestiny? - Not seriously.
36. Brown or white eggs? - To quote marika_kailaya, "they're the SAME."
37. Do you own something from Hot Topic? - I don't know what that is, so no.
38. Ever been on a train? - Yes. Slept in them too, with a bed and everything.
39. Ever been in love? - Yes.
40. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you do it? - Fuck yes.
41. If you could trade places with any person living or dead, who would you trade places with? - I don't care enough to answer this shit. And also, what do you mean "trade places"? Trade consciousness? Trade life roles? Would I still be me? But in a different body or time or whatever? Or actually me, but in their life role? Either way, it would not end well.
42. If you could shorten your life expectancy by 10 years to becopme more attractive, would you do it? - No.
43. Whom do you admire and why? - People who do good things to people and are nice and accomplish good shit while still being awesome. Those people.
44. What was your favorite bedtime story as a child? - I never got bedtime stories. The best my mother ever did was, "There was once a girl who wanted a bedtime story so her mother told her a story about a girl who wanted a bedtime story." I was not amused.
45. You’re walking down the street, you come across a burning building. A woman says her baby is trapped inside, what would you do? - Call the firemen and keep the woman out of the building.
46. If you could choose the future profession of your son or daughter, would you? - WHAT ARE YOU DOING EXISTING? I NEVER WANTED CHILDREN. But fine...time traveller. Take your Ma to the Jurassic period for her sixtieth, would you?
47. What was your best experience on drugs or alcohol? - That one time painkillers actually fucking WORKED and I was no longer in agonizing pain. That was nice.
48. What was your worst experience on drugs or alcohol? - All those other times painkillers DID NOT FUCKING WORK so I spent four hours or so whimpering on the floor in agonizing pain. Not nice.
50. As your walking down the street you find a suitcase full of money sitting next to a parked car, would you take it? - No. That could never end well.
51. If you found that a close friend has AIDS, would you still hang out with them? - You are a horrible human being for even thinking this is a question. OF FUCKING COURSE I WOULD.
52. In front of you are 10 pistols, 5 of which are loaded. If you survive you’d receive 100 million dollars. Would you be willing to place 1 to your head and pull the trigger? - No.
53. How old were you when you lost your virginity? - 25
54. Do you believe in ghosts, werewolves or vampires? - Not seriously.
55. If you could live forever, would you want to? - If I got to have other perks, maybe. (Like, if I wouldn't have to live on the streets forever, or work forever, or be put in a lab as a freak or something.) But if you're asking if I'd want this, just...forever? FUCK NO make it stop.
56. Which fictional movie character most resembles who you are? - Fucked if I know.
57. If you could go back in time, which time period would you visit? - DINOSAURS
58. If they were to televise a live execution, would you watch it? - No.
59. If you could be the president of the USA, would you be willing to do it? - No.
60. If you could choose the sex of your unborn child, would you want to? - NO CHILDREN! HOW MANY TIMES TO I HAVE TO SAY THIS?
61. Would you rather live longer or be wealthy? - GIVE ME WEALTH. Then maybe I might actually enjoy life a bit more.
Thirty Questions About Myself
8. Your oldest hobby - Keeping a diary, I suppose. I've been doing it, on and off, since I was about thirteen, which is longer than I've been writing fiction. (Or at least writing fiction somewhat seriously.)
9. Your sexuality - Heterosexual leaning towards bisexual, I think. I'm not sure. I mean, I get all lustful over men, but then I've had girl crushes in school and get all lustful over women too (although I'm still not clear on whether it's because I want to be them or be with them). Basically, though, everyone's fair game.
10. What you look for in a partner - Kindness, consideration, humour...and if they don't understand why fandom is important to me, then we're going to have a serious problem.
11. Your kids, or your feelings about having kids - *no no no cat noises* No kids. Ever. Especially not the way my life's going, but seriously, do not want.
12. Your pets, past and present - A black Labrador (Emma), for a few years until I was four or five, then we had to leave her because we were leaving the country. Then a couple hamsters (Claudio and Tiffany), then some goldfish (who probably had names but kept dying). And I took care of our class gerbil and guinea pigs a few times. Haven't had a pet since I was in my early teens. I'd love to have a cat, though, or rodents again.
13. Foods you love and foods you hate
14. What your life was like ten years ago
15. How much alcohol you drink
16. Your worst illness
17. What you do at work
18. A question or comment people should never make to you
19. The style of clothing you feel most comfortable in
20. Whether you’re an extrovert or an introvert
21. Who you have a crush on
22. A friendship you lost
23. Three achievements you’re proud of
24. Your political views
25. Your religious beliefs
26. Your perfect night out
27. Whether you like to plan ahead or be spontaneous
28. What you look for in a friend
29. Whether you’re a night owl or a morning lark
30. How you would like people to remember you
Links of the Day:
Supernatural:
Rumrouz's Teen Wolf Crossover Fanvid Winchester are in Beacon Hills
XdwLissaX's Buffy Crossover Fanvid The Lightning Strike for hezio2's Fanfic
Doctor Who:
lonewytch's Meta Conflict and Mirroring: Dinosaurs on a Spaceship
Other Fandom:
obsessive24's Game of Thrones Fanvid Remember the Name
Mythopoeic Society's Nice, good, or right: faces of the wise woman in Terry Pratchett's "witches" novels.
Anamardoll's Deconstructing Narnia (including Nikabrikian Heresies)
Wikipedia's The Voyage of the Dawn Treader: Differences between British and American editions
Random:
ursulav's In Which I Win A Hugo And Fight Neil Gaiman For Free Nachos ; Audio (and Blurry Video!) of my speech ; House with Bird Feet - Excerpt
chaosvizier's flocked Turkish Travelogue: Finale!
theweaselking's Wherein I endorse a TV product [The Booth at the End] ; Side-channel attacks on EEG headsets: Reading the mind of the user to pull out banking information.
Neil Gaiman's A Letter from a Scared Actress
Hugo Awards 2012
In 1960, U.S. Air Force pilot Joseph Kittinger flew thirty kilometers straight up into the sky using a pressurized, high-altitude balloon. This very nearly made him the first man in space. Then he jumped.
* Hello Saferide, "Arjeplog"