Not exactly how I planned it...

[bendeddreams]

Where to begin, this weekend did not work out exactly as I had planned it but was not a total waste of a few days off either. I was going to go visit Eddie but due to circumstances out of my control that did not work out. Seeing as I had 4 days off I decided to take the time and head up to my fathers. WHY??? Good question. He usually stresses me out more than I am when I first arrive but this time was actually a nice little break from the cape cod life. I drove up there on friday and rode the ATV to the top of our mountain. I have to say that from up there everything in life seems a little more clear. Instantly I just felt all the crap I had been feeling release for a bit, which was very nice. Saturday I got woken up at about 6am as is usually the case at the orchard *farmers hours are not for me!!* ate breakfast with the kids then got put to work my my dad. Only for a little while though because i bitched and decided to take off and go to the pond with the kids and Cooper. The pond was a good time no one was there but us which was great. I thought the water would be nice and warm so i went running in only to find out that it's as cold as the ocean!! NOT a nice surprise. We stayed for a while, came home and made one kick ass dinner. My step mom has a lot of faults but she is on heck of a cook, i'll give her that. Saturday night Eddie called which was a nice surprise since I know he hates the phone ( something I wish he would overcome just for me) and we chatted for a few, made me feel better since I had been missing him. Its been over a week and being the pathetic girly girl i am, I was going through withdrawal. Sunday i again got woken up early, worked with dad then took the kids to go see Princess Diaries 2, which I am sad to admit I had been wanting to see for a while. Afterwords I took them to the book store and got them a few new books and then dragged them to old navy, gap, and AE where I bough new shoes, an adorable black dress, a few shirts and a new sweater. I really think I need to find a way to STOP shopping. Went back to the abode, made them lunch and vegged all night till about 10 when sadly I went to bed. Today... I pretty much sat around, got an unexpected phone call then headed home. On the way I detoured to visit Chris who i had not seen in a while, we grabbed some food and watched a movie with his rents and then I came home which pretty much brings me to where I am now which is sitting in front of the computer boring you, no doubt.
The next few weeks are going to be weird for me. I am trying to pull together this move to Boston as quickly as possible for many reason. I have just been in this mood lately and I don't like it. Blah.. I just need to be in the city again! As for seeing Eddie, I am not sure when that will happen, he is really busy with work and various other things so it may be a while which is a bummer but he is worth the wait. I suck at waiting though and of course will annoying him as much as possible till I see him lol. Ok well not annoy but anyone who knows me knows that 1) I need lots of reassurance that I and the person I am seeing or interested in or... whatever you want to call Eddie are on the same page and 2) I love to give attention to people I care about and when I cant be around them or see them on a somewhat regular basis I get worried that I will be " phased out" as I like to call it. Thirdly... I just like doing special little things for people, which with eddie I have come up with a bunch but cant do most of them cause he is 2hrs away so... Eddie I apologize now, feel free to tell me to stop being a dumbass at any moment. Anyways like I said though he seems to be well worth the wait, so next time i see him it will be extra sweet.
Sorry for such a long rant everyone... I am off to clean the apartment and watch the Wedding Singer. Oh yea and POST!!!! Sheesh... give me some love people!

* oh and FYI I never go back and read what I have written so.. sorry for the rambling, randomness and typos! *