Weirdness...

[bendeddreams]

So the last few days have been so strange. Not bad not good just strange and it keeps getting stranger. It just seems that odd things have been happening everywhere I go, or like I keep finding out about things that I rather have no knowledge of, also my general mood lately has been so different from what it was just a few days ago. UGH!!! I hate thinking so much about things but it seems that, that is all I have been doing. First off, the other night at the campground it was quiet all night, actually had been a fairly good and easy day then out of no where I get a call from this woman who said she heard a child screaming from the site across from hers. They were apparently yelling " Daddy don't touch me, don't hurt me" The woman after hearing this was obviously concerned and to make matters worse she was a social worker for the dept. of social services who just happened to be camping with her family. She insisted that I go to the site, by the time I got Mike and drove the golf cart down there it was silent and all the lights were out. I had the worse feeling ever about the entire situation so I called the owner of the campground. Mike agreed with me that it was the right move and from there we called the cops. We of course had no evidence at that point that anything had happened to the kid but, its always better to be safe than sorry in those situations. I am not really supposed to nor do I want to talk about what happened from there but I am glad the cops got called. Now for those of you who know me, you would know that this situation hits somewhat close to home for me. It sucks that whenever I see or hear about things like this happening it just sets off that part of my brain I usually keep repressed, and with good reason. Since then I have not really been able to sleep, go to the sit6e during rounds or really stop thinking about it and my past. Basically, it is making me a very unhappy camper. No pun intended. On top of that... and because of that I have been feeling extra... needy? Maybe not needy but missing having someone to talk to about all this which is why after a few days of driving myself nuts I am venting on here. Its not that I want someone to tell me its ok, or that its all in my past or anything really I just miss having someone wrap their arms around me, someone where all it takes is a hug to make your world seem right again. I kinda miss Eddie too, there is more I would say on that subject but not on here, to many people read this including him, and I have learned that when it comes to guys some things are better left out of posts. Next on the list of weirdness... I got into a bit of an argument with Chris, wont go into details but I was a bit of an asshole, and told him that I was sick of him wanting to know everything about every little piece of my life. Opps! Guess maybe I flipped out a bit. Sorry Chris, but I think I got my point across and maybe the tension between him and I will cool off for a while. Last but not least my mom! This is an ongoing saga in my life since well the day I was born. Today I basically found out/overheard my step dad and my sister talking about how he is going to send my mom to a hospital and take the kids to florida! I have one thing and one thing only to say about that... OVER MY DEAD BODY!! I have spent my entire life protecting them from him and there is no way I will let him run off to Florida with them. So ends all the weirdness in the last few days, but it has been more than enough for me.

Today aside from the plot against my mom I went to PT , the gym and did lots of laundry which has pretty much been routine lately. I am on a gym kick, but it's good for me. Other than that this week will consist of working 4-10 until friday. I have friday night off all day saturday and sunday and then monday morning. If anyone wants to make plans let me know. Hopefully if I am lucky I will hang out with Eddie at some point if he isnt working, maybe see Katie and thats about all. Oh... and I have a proposition if anyone has a truck and wants to make an easy 100$ cash let me know!!! I need someone to move a tent from orleans to the Berkshires, which I know is a hike but its $100 cash and gas money. Let me know ASAP!

OK ok... I am done sorry that was so much, especially if you were a fool and actually read it all. Until next time!