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I've decided i want to play a different kind of music. I like the sound of acoustic it has a much fuller sound i guess. Sunday im going to guitar center with my dad to find one i like. My cousin and i got together today and had some coffee and talked about college. we are both deffinatly going to western if we get accepted, and even if we dont we are going to go to the community college that is right next to it. I love the community in bellingham, and the music scene is awesome, they have small coffee shops where people drink coffee and play music. Two things i love to do. Western even has an underground coffee venue, i think thats really cool. Everything there just seems so laid back and relaxed. I would love to go to college there and experience everything it has to offer, i want to become more cultured and intellectual by experiencing different things, im sick of being stuck in this typical small town and going to such an emblematic school. Maybe im feeling stuck because i cant grow as a person without changing scenes. Im scared to leave what i have known my entire life yet excited to finally live.
My aunt is moving to morocco during my first year of college. She is going to live there for a year to learn the language and experience a different culture. My cousin and i are going to visit her and live there for a month to experence the culture also. Im already excited for it. Then my last year of college im going to study abroad in Italy. Its amazing how much you can decide about your future over a cup of coffee and a two hour chat. I wish money wasnt a factor in so many things, i wish i could do everything i wanted to do and not have to worry about that.
I had fun today at lunch with Tai, Lacie, and Kara. I laughed a lot and had a good time. Thanks guys.
My doctor thinks i need to get a cat scan to see if i have a brain tumor. She thinks that would explain my blurred vision and constant headaches. Im a little worried because i didnt think it would be something so serious, i thought if it was hypoclycemia it could be cured by a few shots of insulin a day which is bad, but not as bad as a brain tumor. Im scared but i guess we will see if i have either diabetes (they had to test for that again) low thyroid (?) or hypoglycemia tomorrow. If its none of those then ill go in for a cat scan. I think its kind of sad that im keeping my fingers crossed to have any of those three.
This post was boring but i had to get my thoughts out, everything now seems so jumbled up, stressful and scary. Sometimes writing down how im feeling or what im planning on doing helps me a little. I think im going crazy, maybe its the tumor.