Jul 12, 2005 21:25
“I cannot,”
he wheezed, “think of a single instance of less-safe sex than what you’re
proposing.”
“I’m not
proposing a damn thing. You’re in no shape to resist my wiles, and enough of
you is still working that we’re going to do this.”
“It ain’t
right,” he whispered, and started to softly cry.
“See, you’re
crying. That means that everything still works just fine, right? I didn’t fall
in love with you to let you go without this. That’s not how things work in my
world.”
“We’re not
in your world, we’re in this hell, and there…”
I put my
finger over his lips and he closed his eyes, his body shaking with sobs.
“Now,” I
said as I unbuttoned his shirt, “I want to get this party started.”
He said
nothing as I kissed down his chest. His skin was colder than it should have
been, but it was still exactly as I knew it would be. He lifted his hands and
ran his fingers through my hair. Such a cliché, but sweet lord, it felt so
good.
Terry relaxed
as I pulled his shirt off of him, even managing to sit up so I could pull the
sleeves off of his arms. I helped him into a sitting position and we held each
other, me sitting on his lap, burying my face in the left side of his neck.
“See,” I
said, wondering if he could still feel my breath on his skin, “even that part
of you is working.”
He tried to
laugh, but began to cough again, so I held him close until the fit passed. I lowered him onto his back again, keeping my
lips on his until his head rested on the pillow.
I slid down
him, my lips brushing his skin, my legs entwined with his. I left one hand to
caress his stomach, so muscular and smooth. How long had I waited to do this? I
had always assumed that he, one of the pretty people, was far from my reach.
Yet here we were, him supine and me with my fingers fumbling with his belt and
zipper.
“No…” he
said, his eyes opening again. I pulled
three condoms from my pocket and held them in front of his face.
“I figure
three skins of latex oughtta work. Now shush. If you haven’t got anything sexy
to say, then don’t say anything.”
I went to
work, preparing him, layer by layer. He was…more than receptive to my touch. I
started to slow down, to appreciate what I was holding in my hands after so
much anticipation, when another round of rasping breath brought me back to my
senses.
I kissed
him, once, lightly, in that most wonderful place, sat up, and began to twist
out of my own clothes. I looked down at him, expecting his eyes to be closed.
They weren’t. He was staring at me, and smiling. I sat atop him, naked, and
blushed. I can’t remember the last time I blushed.
“You don’t
need to look at me,” I said.
“How could
I not?” he smiled weakly, “you’re beautiful.”
“Don’t lie
to me, young man. We both know who’s cornered the market on hot in this room.”
“I didn’t
say hot, I said beautiful. It’s easy to be hot, but no matter how much you work
out, or preen, you can’t make
yourself be beautiful. You either are or you aren’t. And I’ll be damned if I’m
not looking at the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.”
I didn’t
know what to say. All I could do was look to the side in embarrassment, and reach
between his legs, to glide him into me.
He moaned
as I slowly lowered by body onto his. I shuddered for a moment, terrified.
“No, no,”
he said, his eyes closed again, “don’t worry about that. Not yet. I promise
that was one hundred percent ecstasy.” We both smiled, that sort of smile that
says ‘I have a secret, and you know what it is, but nobody else does, and
nobody else ever will.’
I put my
hands on his hips, pressed my legs against the outside of his, and began to
rock, slowly at first. I began to circle my hips, and he arched his back,
pressing deeper into me. I didn’t shudder as his cold hands wrapped themselves
around my hips, guiding my movement, my speed.
“Not so
fast,” I managed to whisper.
“Faster,”
he said, “I don’t know how much time we have left.”
So we went
faster, and our skin grew hot together as we loved as nobody has before. Soon,
too soon, I felt his grip tighten on me, and felt him pulsing inside of me. He
threw back his head and his eyes rolled back into his head.
“Yes…” he
said, breathlessly, “Yes…yes…ye…sssss…”
I was
smiling, and crying, and everything was so perfect…but his eyes weren’t rolling
back to face front. And his hands, still on my hips, began to tighten their
grip.
“No…” I
begged, but he only exhaled, once, loudly, and lay completely still. He was so strong, his
grip so firm, it was hard to even reach over to the bedside table.
I heard him
moan, deep in his lifeless chest, and I knew. I wanted it to be a lie, how badly I
wanted to fall asleep here, in his arms. But I couldn’t. I had promised.
He was still inside me as I grabbed
the pistol from next to the bed.
He barely had time to raise his
head again, his lips blue, the wound on the right side of his neck no longer
bleeding. He barely had time to roll his now-yellowed eyes to fix their gaze on
me, barely had time to groan, opening his mouth and baring his teeth at me, before I pulled the trigger.
A neat hole in the center of the forehead,
as his brains scattered out the back of his skull. His arms fell slack at his
side, and I slid off of him, falling to my knees beside the bed.
I barely heard the footsteps
running up on the other side of the bedroom door.
“Mark?” I heard Alexis say. “Did
you…did you finish him off?”
I couldn’t help but laugh, so wide
that I felt the tears splashing across my teeth.
“Yeah. I…just did.”
“Look, you know he wanted it to be
one of us. We’d better get going. We got a long way to go before we’re safe.”
“La petit mort, mon amour,”
I whispered and got dressed. I turned
off the light as I left.
benjamin sTone
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