january juggle
so the first month of the new year comes to a close. while the events, faces, and the lessons (sana nga i get to absorb them) are still fresh, i'd like to look back a bit and try to recall how my january went, somehow assessing in the process, for reflection, how i have been living my life so far. you see, the usual tendency is for us to sentimentally "perform a review" of how we've spent our years only when it's our birthday or when we change calendars, such that it is very likely that some memories, occasions and realizations get to escape our struggling head. this is the reason why i thought of coming up with something like a monthly "assessment" of my life, to include, in particular, experiences, emotions, decisions, people and stuff which molded the past 30 days or so i've spent in this world. hopefully, thru this, i would get to appreciate life's mysteries, little miracles, angels in disguise, even the challenges and trials which came my way. and also, that finally, i'll discover where to derive the passion i've long been searching, in order for me to achieve true happiness and fulfillment.
such a seeming shot at nirvana, you'd suppose. but hey, it's what everyone aspires for and everyone's got their own little ways, right? what matters is that though our target may seem impossible to conquer, at the end of the day, in success or failure, we can say that we've done our part and hoped for the best, don't you think? so before i get to wade uncontrollably further into fake profundity, allow me to present everything that made up my january list:
a. love/lust life
jan. 4 was the day i think i decisively gave up on oliver, the subject of at least two
of my blog posts, after around a month of..well..an emotional ride. he's still a friend to at
least three of the guys in my group, but we don't communicate anymore.
kenneth, an attached guy i met in bed dec. 30th last year, gave me on jan. 13 a
starbucks planner, a gesture with which i was touched, since he found out about my
wanting to get the planner the night we met when we had coffee at starbucks adriatico.
well, at first, we were seeing each other at least once a week (just dinner, beer, no sex)
but now he hardly even texts me. i guess that's because i walked out on him the last time we
saw each other for being takusa (takot sa boyfriend).
then reyg, this smk-looking guy with a not-so smk voice whom i met at tribu jan. 7th.
i cut off last week whatever he was wishing us to become as i got turned off of his being
makulit. he turned out to take it badly as he texted me "pare-pareho lang kayo".
now, i am, as has been the case for the longest time, single. but i ain't severely feeling
like a loser, especially since valentine's is just around the corner. i'm just trying to get
my mind off it.
b. friends
i still am nurturing hurt some friends caused me. i don't wanna expound on the story, but i
have a feeling it'll be patched soon. hopefully, i'll finally get to find a way to deal with
them truly comfortably.
it was also this january when i gained a new friend, danuel, a chinky-eyed atenean who is the
newbie in our group. he sure is charismatic, and has substance. actually, he's a former
crush.
not much major "contingents" of our group this month, despite four birthday celebrants.
joined them in bagaberde last jan. 8 but did not anymore during their next gimmicks there.
bonded with arj and pao instead in bed on jan. 15 and 28.
c. work
as i've mentioned in one of my posts, i'm currently facing major changes as far as my
responsibilities in my job is concerned. i'm still waiting for signs where i'm supposed to be
headed, hopefully i get to take the right options.
i started attending mandarin classes at the dfa's foreign service institute jan. 11th. it is
indeed exciting learning a new language, even as our lessons get more complicated as we
progress.
i realized that i've come up with a lot of posts for january, here and in my other blog. and that's good as i get to practice my writing skills.
for this month, i've got to be thankful that my family has been in stable health conditions and continues to blessed. as i move on, and begin another month, i hope i get to adopt a more optimistic outlook, spend wisely, and get to settle some "pendings" which are currently in my doorstep. on the less serious front, i simply wish it's going to be more fun, fun, fun. yebba!
such a seeming shot at nirvana, you'd suppose. but hey, it's what everyone aspires for and everyone's got their own little ways, right? what matters is that though our target may seem impossible to conquer, at the end of the day, in success or failure, we can say that we've done our part and hoped for the best, don't you think? so before i get to wade uncontrollably further into fake profundity, allow me to present everything that made up my january list:
a. love/lust life
jan. 4 was the day i think i decisively gave up on oliver, the subject of at least two
of my blog posts, after around a month of..well..an emotional ride. he's still a friend to at
least three of the guys in my group, but we don't communicate anymore.
kenneth, an attached guy i met in bed dec. 30th last year, gave me on jan. 13 a
starbucks planner, a gesture with which i was touched, since he found out about my
wanting to get the planner the night we met when we had coffee at starbucks adriatico.
well, at first, we were seeing each other at least once a week (just dinner, beer, no sex)
but now he hardly even texts me. i guess that's because i walked out on him the last time we
saw each other for being takusa (takot sa boyfriend).
then reyg, this smk-looking guy with a not-so smk voice whom i met at tribu jan. 7th.
i cut off last week whatever he was wishing us to become as i got turned off of his being
makulit. he turned out to take it badly as he texted me "pare-pareho lang kayo".
now, i am, as has been the case for the longest time, single. but i ain't severely feeling
like a loser, especially since valentine's is just around the corner. i'm just trying to get
my mind off it.
b. friends
i still am nurturing hurt some friends caused me. i don't wanna expound on the story, but i
have a feeling it'll be patched soon. hopefully, i'll finally get to find a way to deal with
them truly comfortably.
it was also this january when i gained a new friend, danuel, a chinky-eyed atenean who is the
newbie in our group. he sure is charismatic, and has substance. actually, he's a former
crush.
not much major "contingents" of our group this month, despite four birthday celebrants.
joined them in bagaberde last jan. 8 but did not anymore during their next gimmicks there.
bonded with arj and pao instead in bed on jan. 15 and 28.
c. work
as i've mentioned in one of my posts, i'm currently facing major changes as far as my
responsibilities in my job is concerned. i'm still waiting for signs where i'm supposed to be
headed, hopefully i get to take the right options.
i started attending mandarin classes at the dfa's foreign service institute jan. 11th. it is
indeed exciting learning a new language, even as our lessons get more complicated as we
progress.
i realized that i've come up with a lot of posts for january, here and in my other blog. and that's good as i get to practice my writing skills.
for this month, i've got to be thankful that my family has been in stable health conditions and continues to blessed. as i move on, and begin another month, i hope i get to adopt a more optimistic outlook, spend wisely, and get to settle some "pendings" which are currently in my doorstep. on the less serious front, i simply wish it's going to be more fun, fun, fun. yebba!