Wake me up when september ends...
We'll i havn't written for a while and my friend at work today made me feel guilty about it so here goes nothing...
Today and for the past few days i have felt really good about things. I feel alot better than i have in a while about life in general. The end of summer was really strange and tough and now i feel like a boulder has been lifted off my shoulders. I don't know what it is, well thats not true i think i have an idea but im not proud of the reasons and its too hard to explain. In any case i think there i reached the light at the end of the tunnel and now im ready to move on and focus on school and friends and my future.
I've decided im not going to put a whole lot of effort ... for lack of a better word, into trying to find someone. I guess if things work out with someone that would be nice but otherwise im not going to go through that whole bullshit faze of trying to call and make my feelings obvious without making things akward at the same time. I'm tired of wishing. If something comes my way it will come, whatever is meant to happen will happen and im fine with that.
Today i talked to a rep from U Chicago and he convinced me to apply. It's a Graduate school and its really math and science oriented but he assured me that there were programs there in film and politics i could enjoy and take advantage of. What i like is that it is a school that really encourages "thinking outside the box" i mean their application is called "the uncommon App"...what kind of school does that?! I'm starting to come to terms with the notion that i won't get into UPENN, and i think realizing that i could go to schools like UChicago and Boston U gives me some sort of peace and comformity knowing that i wont be a failure if i dont get into a school that is one of the toughest to get into in the country. There is still a little wishful thinking inside me though...
So you know how at new years we all make resolutions, well i think its stupid to do that in Jan because if you really think about it the school year starts in Sept and that really is the begiingin of a new chapter at least in our lives... so here are my new school year resolutions:
Get Straight A's
Go see mitch perform more often
Go see as many FH games as i can
Go to at least 2 Mt. Volleyball games
Get my applications in well before the deadline
Do a good job on my documentary and dont let it become something i never finish
Stop procrastinating HW.
Have an amazing time in Boston with this year in Dec and at the end of this month
Watch as many movies as i can (NETFLIX rocks!!!)
Go see an NFL and NHL game, ive never been to either
Actually enjoy Home Comming
Learn how to dance
Take Mitch to NYC
Ok there is more i could write but im tired for now...and yes i am aware that i sound like a nerd, but you know what im tired of caring about what other people think
FUCK YOU
-Ben
Today and for the past few days i have felt really good about things. I feel alot better than i have in a while about life in general. The end of summer was really strange and tough and now i feel like a boulder has been lifted off my shoulders. I don't know what it is, well thats not true i think i have an idea but im not proud of the reasons and its too hard to explain. In any case i think there i reached the light at the end of the tunnel and now im ready to move on and focus on school and friends and my future.
I've decided im not going to put a whole lot of effort ... for lack of a better word, into trying to find someone. I guess if things work out with someone that would be nice but otherwise im not going to go through that whole bullshit faze of trying to call and make my feelings obvious without making things akward at the same time. I'm tired of wishing. If something comes my way it will come, whatever is meant to happen will happen and im fine with that.
Today i talked to a rep from U Chicago and he convinced me to apply. It's a Graduate school and its really math and science oriented but he assured me that there were programs there in film and politics i could enjoy and take advantage of. What i like is that it is a school that really encourages "thinking outside the box" i mean their application is called "the uncommon App"...what kind of school does that?! I'm starting to come to terms with the notion that i won't get into UPENN, and i think realizing that i could go to schools like UChicago and Boston U gives me some sort of peace and comformity knowing that i wont be a failure if i dont get into a school that is one of the toughest to get into in the country. There is still a little wishful thinking inside me though...
So you know how at new years we all make resolutions, well i think its stupid to do that in Jan because if you really think about it the school year starts in Sept and that really is the begiingin of a new chapter at least in our lives... so here are my new school year resolutions:
Get Straight A's
Go see mitch perform more often
Go see as many FH games as i can
Go to at least 2 Mt. Volleyball games
Get my applications in well before the deadline
Do a good job on my documentary and dont let it become something i never finish
Stop procrastinating HW.
Have an amazing time in Boston with this year in Dec and at the end of this month
Watch as many movies as i can (NETFLIX rocks!!!)
Go see an NFL and NHL game, ive never been to either
Actually enjoy Home Comming
Learn how to dance
Take Mitch to NYC
Ok there is more i could write but im tired for now...and yes i am aware that i sound like a nerd, but you know what im tired of caring about what other people think
FUCK YOU
-Ben