Almost to the turkey
Why does everything have to suck? This thanksgiving break is going to suck because Ill only be able to see everyone for like one day, since I have to entertain family for the rest of it and study for finals which happen 2 weeks after thanksgiving break.
The only thing that doesnt suck is this whole progression towards getting a motorcycle, which is going pretty smoothly. But now Im kind of reconsidering the whole thing, because on the kind of motorcycle I plan on getting, I cant like road trip up to Norcal to visit Lucio like I want to this winter. Not to mention it's incredibly dangerous and already I almost injured myself twice in an empty parking lot during the motorcycle classes I went to last week. Speaking of which, I passed the on-bike test on my first try, which was awesomely cool to do, since it wouldve sucked to have to wait 4 hours for another chance to try and pass it. I keep wondering is it really worth it to get a motorcycle now...before actually buying my own car(I have a car but it's not exclusively my own, hence I would not be able to visit Lucio with it for more than a weekend)? Cause for sure it'd be incredibly worth it if I already had a car.
Anyways, so school is going pretty shitty. My attempt to easily ace all of my classes kind of crumbled by the first round of midterms and any hopes of being able to pick up the pieces were kind of lost during this second round of midterms that just went by. Since the grading scale is only theoretical so far, all I can hope is that everyone else fucked up just as badly. I realize Im being overly dramatic about this since Im still gonna pass the classes, but my gpa is gonna plummet, and GPA is kind of key to moving on to grad school. I registered for classes for next quarter though. Next quarter should be a lot easier since Ill only have 13 units, and a lot more specific to where I want to go with my life since Ill be taking my first bio class, the first organic chemistry class and a bioengineering seminar. Im gonna take next quarter a lot more seriously though, because wtf. How can anyone ever trust me to be their doctor if Im bullshitting the education process that's supposed to give me that authority? Im incredibly impressed with Robert who somehow manages to keep disciplined and geared towards this shit. Whatever happened to all the focus I used to have?
In other news. You've probably heard this already, but I'm incredibly boring and a loser. This very sexually attractive girl asked me to eat with her, so I did. And it was the most akward thing ever, because I didnt want to talk about school since who the hell wants to think about school more than they have to, and there was like nothing going on in either of our lives except schoolwork to serve for more than two minutes of conversation(it's midtermsish time for everyone at UCSD is why). Needless to say, there was enough silence to pass around. *sigh*
Life sucks, and coming back to this shitty closet of a room that I have to share with two other people doesnt make it any better. And nothing can be done about this living situation unless I move out to an offcampus apartment which would be a bad idea since it's rediculously expensive to live in La Jolla, and it's just so much more convenient to live on-campus. It's times like now that I wish I had actually gone to Davis with Robert and John. Less competition in classes. I would have an internship with Robert, actually making some sort of progress towards getting into medical school. I would be sharing an apartment with Robert an hour away from Lucio who I miss so rediculously much (along with robert as well), living out our early highschool dream of living together and randomly setting things around the house on fire. So many things would be less annoying. So on that note I think it's required that I now go down to the beach to appreciate the only thing SD really has over Davis, not counting the whole prestige and leaders in field research which arent worth shit to an undergrad.
The only thing that doesnt suck is this whole progression towards getting a motorcycle, which is going pretty smoothly. But now Im kind of reconsidering the whole thing, because on the kind of motorcycle I plan on getting, I cant like road trip up to Norcal to visit Lucio like I want to this winter. Not to mention it's incredibly dangerous and already I almost injured myself twice in an empty parking lot during the motorcycle classes I went to last week. Speaking of which, I passed the on-bike test on my first try, which was awesomely cool to do, since it wouldve sucked to have to wait 4 hours for another chance to try and pass it. I keep wondering is it really worth it to get a motorcycle now...before actually buying my own car(I have a car but it's not exclusively my own, hence I would not be able to visit Lucio with it for more than a weekend)? Cause for sure it'd be incredibly worth it if I already had a car.
Anyways, so school is going pretty shitty. My attempt to easily ace all of my classes kind of crumbled by the first round of midterms and any hopes of being able to pick up the pieces were kind of lost during this second round of midterms that just went by. Since the grading scale is only theoretical so far, all I can hope is that everyone else fucked up just as badly. I realize Im being overly dramatic about this since Im still gonna pass the classes, but my gpa is gonna plummet, and GPA is kind of key to moving on to grad school. I registered for classes for next quarter though. Next quarter should be a lot easier since Ill only have 13 units, and a lot more specific to where I want to go with my life since Ill be taking my first bio class, the first organic chemistry class and a bioengineering seminar. Im gonna take next quarter a lot more seriously though, because wtf. How can anyone ever trust me to be their doctor if Im bullshitting the education process that's supposed to give me that authority? Im incredibly impressed with Robert who somehow manages to keep disciplined and geared towards this shit. Whatever happened to all the focus I used to have?
In other news. You've probably heard this already, but I'm incredibly boring and a loser. This very sexually attractive girl asked me to eat with her, so I did. And it was the most akward thing ever, because I didnt want to talk about school since who the hell wants to think about school more than they have to, and there was like nothing going on in either of our lives except schoolwork to serve for more than two minutes of conversation(it's midtermsish time for everyone at UCSD is why). Needless to say, there was enough silence to pass around. *sigh*
Life sucks, and coming back to this shitty closet of a room that I have to share with two other people doesnt make it any better. And nothing can be done about this living situation unless I move out to an offcampus apartment which would be a bad idea since it's rediculously expensive to live in La Jolla, and it's just so much more convenient to live on-campus. It's times like now that I wish I had actually gone to Davis with Robert and John. Less competition in classes. I would have an internship with Robert, actually making some sort of progress towards getting into medical school. I would be sharing an apartment with Robert an hour away from Lucio who I miss so rediculously much (along with robert as well), living out our early highschool dream of living together and randomly setting things around the house on fire. So many things would be less annoying. So on that note I think it's required that I now go down to the beach to appreciate the only thing SD really has over Davis, not counting the whole prestige and leaders in field research which arent worth shit to an undergrad.