I suppose Im the black one
Total Gawd: how long has it been...do you remember when honesty was a policy?
Total Gawd: it always seems that when you are a kid you are told one thing
Total Gawd: and it begins to unravel in layers of reality
Total Gawd: I sort of started day dreaming there =p
Total Gawd: anyways
BENAUY321: well I agree with what you said
BENAUY321: but it doesnt have to be that way
BENAUY321: you could just not be fake
BENAUY321: and not try and please everyone
Total Gawd: well well well
BENAUY321: ?
Total Gawd: Mr. kettle accepts the views of Mr. pot
Total Gawd: =p
Im so tired of trying
Feelings are fleeting, so why do I care so much about letting go of this? I mean Ive let go of others before, but conciously I dont want to forget this one. But that's gottah be the best way to go. And it doesnt make me any more insignificant than I already am. If only denial changed anything.
I cant wait until I have a motorcycle to just go as fast as possible on these long stretches of La Jolla road whenever I get frustrated with crippling thoughts that all this time to myself A.K.A. homeowrk time, gives me. Only another 27 days until the whole license acquisition process begins. Sadly, all the nice looking used motorcycles I had my eyes on on craigslist just dissappeared! I hope others just as good become available when Im able to buy them! I cant help feeling like Im hyping myself up for nothing, like the rest of my life.
Im going back home to L.A. tommorrow, to see Drew's play, pick up all the shit I forgot to bring with me, and to get my parents to pay for food I want, so I dont have to. I am trying to be excited, but this train ride is going to suck mostly due to the reverse progression feeling looking out the window is gonna give me, and being at home is going to be akward, and I probably wont feel any less crappy when I get back to San Diego, although Im hoping some part of my mindset will change with a brief break from here.
Total Gawd: it always seems that when you are a kid you are told one thing
Total Gawd: and it begins to unravel in layers of reality
Total Gawd: I sort of started day dreaming there =p
Total Gawd: anyways
BENAUY321: well I agree with what you said
BENAUY321: but it doesnt have to be that way
BENAUY321: you could just not be fake
BENAUY321: and not try and please everyone
Total Gawd: well well well
BENAUY321: ?
Total Gawd: Mr. kettle accepts the views of Mr. pot
Total Gawd: =p
Im so tired of trying
Feelings are fleeting, so why do I care so much about letting go of this? I mean Ive let go of others before, but conciously I dont want to forget this one. But that's gottah be the best way to go. And it doesnt make me any more insignificant than I already am. If only denial changed anything.
I cant wait until I have a motorcycle to just go as fast as possible on these long stretches of La Jolla road whenever I get frustrated with crippling thoughts that all this time to myself A.K.A. homeowrk time, gives me. Only another 27 days until the whole license acquisition process begins. Sadly, all the nice looking used motorcycles I had my eyes on on craigslist just dissappeared! I hope others just as good become available when Im able to buy them! I cant help feeling like Im hyping myself up for nothing, like the rest of my life.
Im going back home to L.A. tommorrow, to see Drew's play, pick up all the shit I forgot to bring with me, and to get my parents to pay for food I want, so I dont have to. I am trying to be excited, but this train ride is going to suck mostly due to the reverse progression feeling looking out the window is gonna give me, and being at home is going to be akward, and I probably wont feel any less crappy when I get back to San Diego, although Im hoping some part of my mindset will change with a brief break from here.