"never set your hopes too high, or else you'll end in bitter disapointment."

[benallen]

yeah and stuff. so the internship that i applied for and interviewed for for wegmans, that i thought i did very good in and thought i was going to get, i did not get. when i found out on friday at work, i was extremely disapointed and upset. this was a huge opportunity for me. my front end manager, joanne was also upset that i did not get it. she said we are going to work on setting something up for me within our store so i can train in other departments and work with the night manager and stuff so i can get the experience. that will be good. i hope it all works out. i'll probably end up getting a second job this summer then. i might go back to the pool store or i might see if i can find something waiting/busing tables or bartending on friday and saturday nights. something where i can make decent money from tips and stuff. maybe like daisy flower mill or something. i'll figure it out.

i've felt pretty lonely lately. very lonely infact and it sucks. i guess i'll just have to deal with it.

i've been slacking a bit this semester so far, but this week i am kicking it in high gear until the end of the semester. i really need to do that so i can get back into fredonia, keep my scholarship, and get a good student discount on my insurance. it will happen starting this week.

i think that is all for now. finally a real update.

ben